I don't know yet. I'm honestly too young, because some things a person may want may take the determination of a great deal of patience over many years. As far as I know, I keep trying until I don't want that "thing" anymore or when I realize I will never have that "thing." Be it a person, goal, whatever. So if I'm pursuing a love, and they don't return those feelings, I'll stop "chasing" them because I know it won't work out. As for transitioning in a way that appeals to me, I still pursue this, because I have confidence that technology (or rather, patents, eugenics, and ethics) will change enough that I can accomplish this. With that "hope," whether it be false hope or real hope, it's still hope. That hope that drives me.
So, wanting something with everything in me... I don't think I've ever wanted something that much, not even "being male." I'm already most of the way there; mentally. I could suffer in this body and still live, I believe. That is if I don't commit suicide. My transition is supposed to prevent me from acts of self harm, which are becoming a more and more common element of my life style.