Quote from: Laurry on June 25, 2008, 06:39:44 PMI've been questioning whether I am transsexual quite a bit lately myself, but I keep coming to the conclusion that I'm just a woman-wannabe. I have too much guy to be a gal, and too much gal to be a guy. Most of the time being Androgyne feels right, but sometimes it really sucks.
I understand what you mean. I'm pretty much transitioned and most of the world knows me as a woman, but sometimes I feel more like an androgyne. I cringe at the idea of being thought of as male and for the most part the female role feels much more natural to me, but there are other times I simply feel different than a lot of other women. I've put a lot of thought into what path is best for me and my conclusion seems to be that I need to finish up my transition and continue being female for all intents and purposes, but either act more or less feminine as the mood suits me. I also can't ignore the physical indications of my body that say "this person was supposed to be female" such as the 2D4D finger test.
At this point I usually don't wear much makeup and I don't really care if people see me working with tools or that I'm still stronger than most women or doing other "typical guy activities" (especially since it doesn't really change their perception of me), but I do sometimes feel like being more feminine and dressing a bit more girlish or just dancing around when I hear music. If forced to dress formally, I prefer dresses as opposed to male clothes or even androgynous clothes. I would much rather hear a "ma'am" than a "sir" any time (not that anyone has addressed me as sir in years), although I prefer it when people address me as "miss" because it implies youth.
I think I just described how most women my age are so I don't really feel out of place. I've been fulltime for just over 2 years now and things feel more "right" than I can recall in the past. If things just don't feel right to you in the female role, then I congratulate you on discovering the correct path for you. No path is a superior path over another. You just need to look at what is right for you.