From what I heard, I was talking to my friend, of whom has been helping me, and he called my father, who was happening to be with mother at the wrong time. She made him go into his email, and she read the messages.
And, I was just thinking recently too, that I may just dress feminine, get the beard zapped, shave my legs, and let my hair grow, but not transition, because I don't think it's right right now. Like I won't be comfortable with myself as a woman. But, now that she knows, it's brought another perspective, that now she knows, I could just go ahead. I know this may not be the right place, but I believe in reincarnation and would definitely be reborn a woman, but now I don't think I can handle it. But knowing that my mother knows, that partially knocked down a wall in my mind, and maybe I should just go forward no matter what.