I am in a little better position than I was before now, I am away from home finally! My mother is apologizing to me, and is nowhere nearly as ticked with me as she was 1 1/2 weeks ago. Now I have a new challenge laid out ahead of me. My SO I moved in with, of whom is supporting of me, is telling me I should just try and focus on college and all, and let things unfold as they do. I know she wants me to be happy, as she as told me. But, I know I can ignore these feelings (at the moment, I'm so exhausted mentally from last week's hell, that I am not feeling that much of anything, including my gender conflict, because I have little energy and am recovering) for a while, and succeed. But, I always know that there is something that will come unexpectedly and brutally remind me, and bring me down again.
I can't keep waiting, and college will be killer for me without at least seeing a therapist. How can I tell my SO that this isn't just something that I can go and "focus on something else", because the conflict is always with me, it's part of everyday life and I can't just not "feel the conflict". It's just THERE.
