"Trial" dosages of HRT

[Elwood]

wanking. Get used to it...

Currently doesn't work out for me. But maybe in the future I'll find coping methods that make it so I don't feel dysphoric when I touch my naughty bits.

I was talking about when you're on T. T makes you a horny bastard.

Having a micropenis might help... I'm already a horny bastard but dysphoria is more powerful than lust.

[deviousxen]

I thought it was a paraphilia for me, and it just made things worse.


Maybe I'm alone in my genital use cause I have a strong imagination for my fantasies, and cause I'm an idiot. Lol.
I'm such a layered mess... I had to tear my psyche to shreds to finally find out what I was, but I had the pervy boy layers, and the effed up weirder ones as well.

Its like they're made from weaker plaster that looks the same. Quality over quantity maybe. *shrugs


I think I prolly sound psycho now...

[Keira]

Pills are very cheap, Wallmart pharmacy sells estrogen by the pound it seems.

Doctor's are way too conservatives in MTF therapies, I don't get how
having way less than pregnancy levels of estrogen in my blood would
be bad if millions of years of women with 10 kids lived through it happily.

They just have got no data and thus they improvise.
There's basically no real decent studies (and with no real money
in this, not likely to be any)
of what we need, its all empirical and even there, the data is
not really well collected.

[Elwood]

I thought it was a paraphilia for me, and it just made things worse.


Maybe I'm alone in my genital use cause I have a strong imagination for my fantasies, and cause I'm an idiot. Lol.
I'm such a layered mess... I had to tear my psyche to shreds to finally find out what I was, but I had the pervy boy layers, and the effed up weirder ones as well.

Its like they're made from weaker plaster that looks the same. Quality over quantity maybe. *shrugs


I think I prolly sound psycho now...

You're not. I know a girl who likes to play with her male genitals. She imagines that the wet sounds are coming from the right place. If only I knew what a guy was supposed to sound like. But that isn't something that a boy is born with; he learns that... I don't have the right equipment to learn such information... And boy's puberty and sex life is much harder to find information about. Male sexuality is covered under a sheet black lace; you can see bits and pieces through the small holes in it, but you never get a full glimpse of it all. Today I was at Borders, looking through hundreds of books on sexuality. I tried the library too a couple weeks ago. Nothing. All the sexuality seemed to be on women and girls. The lesbian section was absolutely astonishingly large, but nothing on pure masculinity. The women's study section was massive, where the men's study was no longer than 8 books, most of them being about "how men think."

Don't worry. We're all a little bit psycho.

[deviousxen]

Lol. I'll tell you about the male puberty if you tell me about the female one. PM me one of these days if you have any questions about the most Efftarded period of any human beings life.. Guaranteed.

Trust me... Its a totally horrid time, just like a girls in many ways. I totally understand you wanting to know though...

[Elwood]

REALLY? I've never heard that it was hard for guys at all...

[deviousxen]

You get more zits, unwanted erections during school, your character gauged on how big the erections are, "Crushes" on people that ruin your life cause of testosterone. You basically can't help being retarded if you have enough of it in your system. I used to be a terrible person in some respects. I only realized what was going on when I took that stuff out of me...

Maybe T girls like me have less control over what they aren't meant to even have.


Cause I was a failure. Like I said, the graphic details I can tell you in PM if you're that interested...

[Elwood]

LOL. I had no idea. I just thought males acted that way because they were lazy. I never gave a thought that they had hormonal moods, too.