I had lunch with my mom today and during our conversations we discussed my transition. She revealed that my biological father was more than likely transgendered. She said several times she saw what appeared to be makeup on him and that he had a feminine part of him. She said that back then you didn't talk about things like that and so she doesn't know for certain. I needless to say found it fascinating*. Today I informed her that I would be seeking a name change. I had reminded her in a previous email that I do intend to have SRS.
QuoteI am a transsexual I have been from birth. I will eventually get my sexual organs modified to what I have felt all my life they should be. I do not, have not, and never will feel like a man does. I may have been born with the body of a male but that is not how I am inside. You all however, insist on treating me that way. That has and does scar me to this day.
I spent all my life wishing and praying that god or whoever take me and make me a natural girl. It didn't happen as much as I wish it did. I however will eventually get as close as humanly possible. I don't know why I have always felt this way but I have. It goes back to way before puberty. It started as a vague discomfort and only later when I became more aware did I finally understand exactly what it was.
I didn't admit for years and years how I felt to you. We were taught to take our emotional pain and invert it inside ever showing it on the outside. I always wanted you and xxx to treat my sisters and me the same instead of separating me from the pack and surrounding me with isolation in the family.
So a interesting day today to say the least.
* Incase it wasn't clear I do not really remember my birth father.
