Transition, Tension and Making Sure
http://maurphish.wordpress.com/2008/09/07/transition-tension-and-making-sure/9/7/2008
I can't wait until I go full-time because then I can just start living a regular life again. As it is right now, I schizophrenically dress as a male during work days, despite my testosterone levels being as close to zero as they can possibly be, and then dress regularly whenever I am not at work. It is actually quite stressful!
Why?
Because I think, feel and understand myself as a woman now. My self image is all female and that feels great. The high levels of estrogen I am taking right now combined with the androcur and finasteride make me as hormonally female as any girl going through puberty, but some people, despite the feminine vibes they are getting, insist on calling me 'sir'. Ouch!
