First of all, don't ever be sorry for expressing yourself and getting your thoughts out about how you feel, honey. We're all here to support each other and help each other through whatever problems we encounter in our lives.
*big hug*
It's better you get them out here, Brady, than keep everything bottled up inside, and have the support of your friends and those who care about you here. You're not alone, and you don't have to suffer alone, honey.
Emotional ties are hard things to let go of, I know, and love is something that never truly goes away even if you want it to. *extra hug* I'm not going to tell you why you did the right thing with what you did, because that won't matter when you're feeling the way you are now, sweetie.
But one thing I will say is... I know you love him, honey, but you don't need him as much as you think you do. Being with someone, giving yourself to them, can sometimes lead to us feeling like we'll be lost without them and they are the only people in the world that can make everything all right... because we're so used to them doing that, and relying on their strength... that we can forget about our own strength.
You can get through this, Brady. You're a strong guy. Look inside yourself, look for that spark of determination that you had when you left to strike out on your own path, when you said to yourself "I know who I am, and I know what I want in life". It's still there, honey, it always will be.
I know it hurts, and it will do for a while. But you can get through it and make your life the way you want it to be. Hang in there, honey. *hugs* You have my support, my love, and my hope that you feel better soon.
*hands you some tissues*
It's okay to let it out, you know. It won't be like this forever, honey.
