Thanks

[ging2255]

for listening, I guess. I have said what I felt I needed to. Do take care

[Nero]

I'm sorry for your loss hon. Why bumping your head against the wall? 

[Just Mandy]

Hi Ging,

It's been kinda slow around here the last day or two. Please don't let everyone's
lack of response get to you. I'm not sure you will ever read this.

[Nero]

Thanks for listening, I guess.

Your Welcome Ging, for what it's worth, did you recieve my PM the other day, manage to find and read some more of "divatswun"'s(?) posts? I suspect there was not that many, her visit here must have been brief and sorry we cannot better help fill some of the many unanswered holes that surely must exist right now within your heart. Been there, done that too! Do come back anytime you feel like talking, tell us what she was like!

holy... it was divatswun?!? 

[Nero]

a member here for a brief time who mostly posted in the sexuality section.

[ging2255]

Yes my special friends name, well actually her www name was Divatswun a.k.a. Nicole and/or Noelle. She was going to change her name to Mercedes. And yes, she had some serious sex issues which was why she probably posted in the SEX area as one person stated. You know I should have seen this coming and its my fault she........... went away. She would find several, how to say this, not gentleman, but what I would call thugs totally abuse her and use her any way they wanted. On at least five occasions she had to go to the hospital because they had beaten her so badly. She always told me she liked it rough, was turned on by it. But now I'm not so sure. I think that the possibity is very real that she was trying to get killed.
I use to tease her jokingly. I can't deal with this. Don't want I deal with this. We were all each other had, you know. Listen to me, how pathetic I am to be spilling my guts out here, and my tears on the iPod touch she gave me. She said she was getting a new one. How terrible of me

[vanna]

Hi ging

im so very sorry at your loss i trully am hun, its so not fair in life when you loose someone who touch's your heart. Keep posting in here, there are many wonderful people and although it seems like no-one's listening at times your find that people still care.

Big hug to you and i hope your okay, treasure your memories.

Vanna X

[Nero]

Yes my special friends name, well actually her www name was Divatswun a.k.a. Nicole and/or Noelle. She was going to change her name to Mercedes. And yes, she had some serious sex issues which was why she probably posted in the SEX area as one person stated. You know I should have seen this coming and its my fault she........... went away. She would find several, how to say this, not gentleman, but what I would call thugs totally abuse her and use her any way they wanted. On at least five occasions she had to go to the hospital because they had beaten her so badly. She always told me she liked it rough, was turned on by it. But now I'm not so sure. I think that the possibity is very real that she was trying to get killed.
I use to tease her jokingly. I can't deal with this. Don't want I deal with this. We were all each other had, you know. Listen to me, how pathetic I am to be spilling my guts out here, and my tears on the iPod touch she gave me. She said she was getting a new one. How terrible of me

oh god sweetie, this saddens me all the more to have briefly met her. i wish i had recognized she was suffering before she left.

[Just Mandy]

Hi Ging,

I'll echo what everyone else has said. Suicide is no one's fault but the person that does it.

I think this can also be a reminder to all of us how fragile that some of us are and how maybe we can be
more understanding when someone seems extreme. I remember reading her posts and at the time thought
they were a cry for help. But all we can do is listen and comment. And Nicole was not alone, we have all seen
girls like her on this forum that seem to be reaching out to anyone. Maybe we all can be more vigilant, urge
them to see therapists, and just be here for them.

Please stick around Ging, we are here to listen, and please think about talking to a therapist or even a friend in
person. You don't have to deal with this alone.