Hello all,
I'm Sarrah and I guess this is overdue. I'm 18 and a college student at Warren Wilson College in Swannanoa(Asheville), NC. I've been trying to put this off as long as I can, but I am a questioning transsexual.
I really haven't acknowledged this much in my past, but since I've gotten to college(aka out of my house) I've been seeing this emerge more and more in my life. I guess the earliest memory I really have was when I created my first EverQuest character. I decided to play a female. I can't remember my exact motivation for doing this was but it stuck. And for the most part the feminine side of me stayed in EQ. The exception to this being that when I answered the phone my voice would jump and octave and I was constantly being mistook for my mother.
Fast forward a couple years and I end up at the end of HS. I started growing out my hair and like having longer hair. Then I leave HS and I cancel my EQ subscription and leave that part of me behind. So i get to college, and during orientation week I want to get my ears pierced(whether this my little freshman rebellion or my feminine side coming through I've yet to decide). After orientation its the first week of school and the LGBTQQ Group on campus decides to host a dance called "Dance The Night A-Gay" as a meet-and-greet for queer students on campus. For one reason or another I decided I wanted to get a skirt for this event, so I went into Asheville and bought a skirt. I wore it that night at the dance, and felt fantastic. Life goes on and I start to wear the skirt on normal days. I borrow friend's nail polish and like the way that it makes me feel more womanly. More and more people comment on how I look and act as feminine, and I brush them off and try not and acknowledge it.
I start to try and figure out why I feel good and right when I'm dressed in woman's clothing. I look up all the words that keep floating around in my head and keep trying to pin down a label for myself. Prior to this I merely identified as a Bisexual with a heavy tendency towards men. So I wanted to be able to find a word for myself again. I start searching, and after a little bit I ended up on Susan's.
