Going to see a Therapist but afraid.

[Mika N.]

Christine, let me say that I am so very glad I made that first appointment.  Nervous and a little scared the night before, yes. 

However, Randy put it so well by posting
"just remember why transition is important to you, and remind yourself that it's something you have to do."

I would like to thank Randy for stating that to me.  That and all the positive reinforcement by people on this site helped me.  I realize that I must complete my transition so that I can actually "live" my life.  Staying the way I am (isolated, sad, pretending) isn't the way I want to exist for the rest of my life.  I feel I wasted so many years being untrue to myself.  I want to speak, feel, smell, dress, think, move, care like a woman;  I want to be as complete a woman that I can possibly be.  Christine,  you can do it, make that call.  I am also planning to see my therapist again in February.  (Correction), I "will" see her again in Feburary.

Chrissty, that's a great idea! I never thought about doing that.  I'm going to call myself a few times and leave voice messages to check how my phone voice sounds like.  Looks like I'll be doing the once a month sessions too.

Mika

[Randy]

I would like to thank Randy for stating that to me.

Glad I could help. 

[katherine]

Hi Mika...
So, how did your session go?  I hope you attended that it went well for you!

[Firelight]

Mika, we're in the exact same boat. I'm a week away from my first real therapy session, and my mind is completely full of questions. I also want to get started on transitioning as soon as I'm given the green light to do so. I've got a lot on my mind and was barely able to get any sleep at all tonight (a situation I expect to repeat itself as this time goes by). We'll just have to support each other as we go through this, being at such similar stages.

Stay frosty, girl. We'll make it! 

[Mika N.]

Katherine,
My first therapy session went pretty good.  Answered a lot of background get to know me questions ranging from my childhood experiences to the present.  Then I just spilled my guts on everything I needed(transitioning, ffs, srs, hrt).  She wasn't judgmental at all and very easy to speak with.  From that first visit, she said that she didn't see any issues against me transitioning but wants to see me some more.  She liked the perfume I was wearing. ^^

Firelight,
It is best to write all your questions down like the advice other people have said.  That way you won't walk out and forget some things you want answered.  Honestly, I didn't sleep much the night before; but afterwards I realized how much of a relief it was to let it all out to the therapist, and I kind of enjoyed the therapy session.  I know other people had to look around a bit to find the right therapist, but so far I think I'll stick with this one.  I think everyone gets nervous before thier first session, but really it isn't nothing to be scared about.  Go and be honest with the therapist, you will be glad you did.

Mika

[Firelight]

Very nice advice, Mika. Advice I intend to take. One really great thing is that this is a specialist in TG therapy, so that's a very good thing. It's a little less than a week away, and believe me, I'll be counting the minutes...

[lizbeth]

Mika! you deserve a big hug! 
i'm glad your first time went well

firelight, the buildup to the first session is so much worse than the actual session. it's hard not to have all those thought run through your head, but once it's over you'll be so releived.

we're all here to support each other.

[katherine]

Hi Mika, Firelight,
I agree with Eliza beth, the waiting is worse than that first session.  So many worries and questions, and when that first session is over, so much relief.

Congratulations Mika!  I'm happy you followed through and attended your session!  I know it is such a relief to speak with someone about all the feelings we keep inside.  Like Eliza beth said, we are here to support each other...