I really want kids [two at the most], but I'm S**T scared of pregnancy. =_= Thing is, I want to have kids with my fiancé, as in OUR DNA and stuff, but short of some sort of surrogate carrying FOR me, it's looking impossible to me. As much as it scares me, though, I might have to bite the bullet and go through it eventually [even though typing it now is causing me to freak a little] since unless there's no way medically that I can carry, I really have no excuses [physically, I mean]. =_=
My problem is that I REALLY DO want my OWN kids. So I think the desire to carry on the DNA is sort of causing me more confusion. xD I can say now, though, its certainly not a 'motherly' feeling nor desire. xDD