i am a friend, but in that piece you said you'd rather die than be mediocre.
Most people are mediocre, most people are complacent to live substandard lives. Take my mum for example she never resisted; failed school, worked in a factory, had me young, did the best she could, went back to work when we grew older and hates it but can't afford to stop. Has few real friends, never discovered her talents, when she dies there will be two children that miss her completely but no statues. She will never achieve greatness or prosperity, or freedom, or harmony. Nor will most people.
So in writing what you wrote, you said you would rather die than be like the majority of people who give so much more than they expect in return, who take so little glory from life.
You said you were better than those people, and worst of all, you said you were better than my mum. And no one is.