NAAA, not really! lol
I am though in certain ways.
HOWEVER!
You are far superior to me in other ways!
O.K. scar, get to the point! lol
I have this ability to see through people and have a special feel on life that I truly believe most don't hve. If they did, the world would'nt be as cruel as it is.
Some are smart in math, others in computers or whatever.
But I'm finding I have a feel for the human spirit.
I'm falling more into my own world though.
Meaning I don't no longer trust anyone...
I'm scared of getting hurt again.
It happens on the web more than real life. People online seem so cruel sometimes I guess.
I wish You could see my heart, I really have a "special feel" on life. It really is a mind blower. It makes me a misfit to think outside the box. That pic of a mixing board is from the bottom of my heart. My emotions and thought process is truly that vast. I've been told I have A.D.D. But the thing is, I can focus. It's called "hyper focus"
I learn so much everyday! My mind never shuts up! My mind is always plotting and planning!
Are you the same?
I sure feel alone sometimes as much as I'm made fun of....
I never try and hurt anyone, I just show love, but yet I get stepped on by the same peole I show love and respect to.
Is it true that it's a "dog eat dog" world?
There is no sense of kindness left in the world?
Do you have to be a liar to succeed? Do you have to cheat on your spouse to make a marriage work?
These things way heavily on my mind.
I'm true to my wife and will never see a man by my side...
DOOOM AND GLOOM is what I've been called at one time!
Why?
Because I see truth?
Go on and shoot me down, but I truly believe in love! What makes it so impossible to love one another?
I myself am guilty of judging!
But is it really so hard to put life before pride and money?

I'll go out on a limb here though I didn't want to and post a link to one of my blogs
www.yourfinalbow.comI'm just getting started on it, but it will grow! I still haver stuff from my archives to post.
I have so much writing that never even made it to the web.
Love you ladies..

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I walk past him and see the hurt in his eyes...
I can't help but stop and ask if he's O.K....
I truly feel his story as I hold him in my arms,,,
I feel your pain hun, you're safe now...
People, I know I come off as an ass here, but I really do feel things that go above and beyond my comprehension.
I talk to a person and I feel what they're feeling, I understand and know.
I can't explain it!
People mean everything to me!
I'm in recluse outta fear of being hurt....
EVERYONE I come in contact with is some how absorbed.
I see every wrikle on their face, the eye color and everything that goes with it.
I sometimes feel alone in the way I view people...
WOW! I didn't know there was he ability to monitor a post as it was written to merge it! I have to check this out! lol