had some long thinking

[Astral]

After thinking for some time... I've come to the conclusion that I'm just a really feminine in some aspects. I mean, I would be very happy living as a woman. However, I have learned that a transition isn't right for me. I can continue to live as a male.

However... I don't know if I can continue with my male parts. Seeing them drive me crazy... I may not be a woman(I feel a bit womanly sometimes) but I'm definately not a man(I feel no masculinity) either =(. This is probably strange x.x... but I'm scared if I did anything about even that, no one would love me... I want to be with someone someday... and as it is, i'm not even able to get a woman to consider me... I haven't had a girlfriend in over 5 years... not even a close relationship with anyone.

So I feel as though it's a choice between forever giving up on being with someone... or not doing anything about it and continue looking for someone.

[Nero]

um... if you haven't had a relationship in 5 years, what exactly would you be losing if you 'did something about' your condition?

Maybe if you were more comfortable in your body, you'd attract more relationhsips.

[vanna]

Hi hunny

Transition can be tough to accept and harder to do but the reason we do it is to be who we really are. Have you talked to any therapists and really got to the bottom of your distress??

I can totally understand you wish to live as a guy still although it doesnt sound that way to me to be honest...seek support hunny and dont rush anything.

You really dont want to be back here in another decade asking the same questions but with even more regret.

[deviousxen]

After thinking for some time... I've come to the conclusion that I'm just a really feminine in some aspects. I mean, I would be very happy living as a woman. However, I have learned that a transition isn't right for me. I can continue to live as a male.

However... I don't know if I can continue with my male parts. Seeing them drive me crazy... I may not be a woman(I feel a bit womanly sometimes) but I'm definately not a man(I feel no masculinity) either =(. This is probably strange x.x... but I'm scared if I did anything about even that, no one would love me... I want to be with someone someday... and as it is, i'm not even able to get a woman to consider me... I haven't had a girlfriend in over 5 years... not even a close relationship with anyone.

So I feel as though it's a choice between forever giving up on being with someone... or not doing anything about it and continue looking for someone.

Just remember that "feminine," Has very little to do with you actually being a woman. I didn't start transitioning ultra feminine, but It was pretty clear I wasn't going to be ok as a man..