I have very few insights that others haven't offered. A few months ago you were experimenting with anal...does that still hold possibilities? And remember that some men are just born with microphalluses. Can you start shifting your thinking and begin to view your own part as a small penis? It might be very difficult to do until it grows some, but I'm just sayin'. I've already started thinking of mine as a d*** rather than a cl** (there hasn't been any growth down there yet, I should add). I don't have the same level of dysphoria as you do, obviously, but I'm shifting my thinking and finding that helpful.
I am struck by the disparity in timelines here. My sex drive kicked in after only five days on T (injected). My libido has been driving me nuts, too. Fortunately, I am fairly comfortable with my lower anatomy and can take care of myself when the sexual tension becomes too strong. I have some hangups, of course--I don't know many transguys who don't. But I'm trying to work through them. I'm reaching a compromise with myself. I don't know whether you can do that, but I hope you can.
