Hey folks... I only need to write this down since that really does not happen to me very often...
Yesterday I had to work at my mother's restaurant. I haven't been there for the last half year, and so my mother told everyone about me transitioning. All of the regular customers know quite well about me and due to that I am a little famous in this little gossip chit-chat town which I don't really like, but anyway, I don't need to come out that often due to this. Everyone knows something from someone.
Anyway, there was this old woman who knows me since I am 10 years old. She has known my female name and she just does not accept that I am not female but rather male and she does not stop to call me by my old name(my mother told me...). When my mother saw her coming in, she told me to stay in the kitchen as long and often as I could just to avoid any confrontations. Unfortunately she brought some Danish pastries and wanted to hand them to my mother, then she saw me. The disaster was perfect, of course she called me by my old name and my mother who was somewhere in the back of the kitchen was only shouting I should just not react to her, she knows I am my mother's son. I tried to keep my temper but I really felt like going crazy. Well, she called me several times before she got I will not move an inch towards her, then she handed those pastries to Andy(my stepfather), complaining why I did not react.
When she sat down again she told all of those women sitting at her table how rude I got during time and I just felt like going there and shout into her face what she was thinking who she was...Thanks to my 'rude' behavior I don't do that when there are customers in my mother's restaurant. My mother went out to grab the pastries and said thanks and the woman asked whether we were three or more working today. My mother just said that there was only Andy, her and her son and she did not say any other word about me...
Next time I meet her alone I will tell her what I my definition about rude behavior is... Well, for how long is my mother talking about her son now? I am unsure, but since she comes about four or five times a week she should have got it... Well, she could have left out the complains...
Further, all the regular customers undressed me with their eyes all day long...Since I am able to stand above this I usually don't care, but yesterday I felt like some dish on a plate out there. It was as bad as my first week in school after coming out when half the school was watching every move I made.
What do you say when this happens to you? Do you react or just avoid looking into people's direction, ignoring the call? Usually I am not the one who cannot stand up for myself, but the situation was so bad for me since I cannot upset any of my mother's customers, mainly when the local is full of people.
I can only thank my mother for backing me all the time, since this was somehow the only way we could make clear that I was not the one to blame then.
It still upsets me somehow.
