ok, so Brittiney and everyone(work and family) around me says i'm trying too hard to be female, i'm trying too hard to be a lesbian.
and since i'm a lesbian, i'm NOT suppose to judge guys on their looks, i'm suppose to think they are all ugly, and just total buttholes. i guess i'm suppose to hate everything oriented with the male physique because i'm so totally into girls.
i try too hard, by wearing too much make-up, my dangling earrings make ears look big. i work at walmart as a service writer in automotive. my uniform is a navy blue shirt( which can have variations in color especially for management from white to black), and pants are khaki to dark brown. i have 3 pair of brown pants and 1 brown skirt which i wear brown shorts under at my assistant mangers request because of the grates. i have wedges i'm now normally wearing with it. my brown pants are cords, slacks and a pair that can be converted into capris. my service man. doesn't really like us to wear the khaki pants because they get dirty so easy, so i wear my brown pants. Brittiney says most of my clothes i wear are too nice because i work at wm. i have 2 polo shirts which they provided for me, and i hate wearing them, never liked polos but i've worn them most of the winter over a black turtleneck, with my cords and a pair of ankle boots. for quite some time before i got my haircut, i just pulled my hair back in a ponytail, other days i would wear a barette. my makeup was foundation blush(if i felt i could do it right), powder, lip gloss, eyeliner, mascara, and some eyeshadow.
every now and then, i'll talk with my hands and my voice has been acting up thanks to my allergies so anything that does come out she says sounds like Donald Duck, and that is what she told me.
i dress waaaay too nice just to stay at home or just to go to wm to shop, i'll wear a skirt outfit or a dress, because i feel comfortable, i'm accused of shaving my legs almost every day, i'm lucky if i have enough time on sundays to do it before i go to work.
i have a myyearbook page, and i have a lot of friends on my top friends list that some of them happen to be lesbian or bi, but i know not all of them are.
i've quit wearing so much make-up, if i wear any at all any more, i have her do it, if i can't do my hair how i want, i have her do it too. i'll have her pick out my outfits for this weekend too, cuz i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
am i trying too hard?
am i possibly the only one who has family and coworkers tell their spouse i'm trying too hard behind their back?
