Tinkerbell and Kate
Thank you so much for those supportive and kind words. You have no idea how much your comments have comforted me. I dont want to hijack this thread to talk about myself - but its sort of related, I FEEL more feminine than masculine. I dont look, sound, or act that way. But, since I have been coming here I have been changing in outlook, in essential ways. No - changing is NOT the correct word it is like internal chains or controls are breaking down & slipping away and I am becoming more in tune with myself, more honest as it were. I feel it is making me a better person, more at ease with myself, and that strangely people are responding more positively towards me.
Yet, there are drawbacks - I am feeling more emotional, and that is NOT a good way to be, it scares me. I see parallels in myself and others here in Susans, but I DO NOT WANT to go down the paths they have chosen.
In truth Tinkerbell & Kate, I see your beautiful pics & I do envy you both, but my circumstances are different. I am now both happier and sadder & am sort of rudderless. I can remember reading once "little devils so proud of their Hell" thats me, maybe a chance to escape and so scared
Rana