Rape used as lesbian 'cure'

[Cindy]

Whoops me again 

You are not dreaming about rape you have a domination urge. And nothing wrong with it. Rape is completly differnt.
Rape is a forced crime, it's a beat of you, there is nothing sexual or sensual in rape. It's just pure violence. I've been raped. When I was a teenager. I can still rembemer its smell. I can still feel its breath. I can still feel what it did in my bottom.

It was pre HIV but I still had to get checked for all the STD's. I remember sitting in the ER area, dressed in my skirt and blouse, my face scarred and bruised, and nurses  and docs totally understanding that a perversion like me has probably enjoyed the experience.

I know what to do with rapists

An upset CJ, not at you just memories

Bye

[NicholeW.]

Rape is a forced crime, it's a beat of you, there is nothing sexual or sensual in rape. It's just pure violence. I've been raped. When I was a teenager. I can still rembemer its smell. I can still feel its breath. I can still feel what it did in my bottom.

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An upset CJ, not at you just memories

Yes, quite. One never forgets and yes, one can still "smell" it even after years.

In my estimation it's a crime more horrid than murder as at least the murdered person isn't there to relive and relive the terror and the pain. The "smell" doesn't remain when one's murdered. One doesn't dream about it and wail about it, one doesn't hide herself away when she's murdered.

One does all of that and more when she's raped. There were times that I was "this close" to killing myself because of it.

I've come to a place where the ongoing lives of those who did that to me don't matter any more to me. They lived and hopefully were never put to the same torture that they put me to. But it took long years for me to get to that point. Now, the event is a very real memory, but it is not any longer happening day after day like it did for years.

Rape is not a game and to imagine it as a fantasy is not something I would have any desire to do. Yes, btw, I am also a sub sexually. I enjoy pain games. Did the rape cause that? I dunno. I don't really care, but there are places I refuse to go again and rape is one of them. I suppose knowing the feel of it, the horror of it and the very real agony of it makes me not very desirous of re-experiencing it, even in a role-play.

Nichole

[sd]

From what I've read we were doing pretty okay during the paleolithic - much more egalitarian, less violent, etc. It's when we settled down and started farming that it all went to hell, I suppose since that's where ownership started.

Mina.

I think it has always been there, there is just more people and better news reporting. If there was no newspapers, internet, tv or radio, how many rape victims would you know or hear about. Somehow I doubt cavemen were exactly romantic or kind to the women or that male attitudes regarding sex have significantly changed since then.

[Janet Merai]

I did not intend to offend anyone and I am sorry if I did.

All I meant is, I do not approve of rape (I was not raped) at all, but my mixed thoughts about it turn into a fantasy of being dominated with the idea of rape in mind (of course, role-playing)

There are plenty of people who have told me about their lives after being raped and I have never seen a rape victim before until then, this was long ago, but they were raped in their pre-teens around the age of 12 or a bit higher and lack any self-esteem.

I can understand what you are going through but I haven't been raped myself and I am glad I have not been.
The only person I would allow to take advantage of me sexually with my permission is my own girlfriend.

[NicholeW.]

I did not intend to offend anyone and I am sorry if I did.

All I meant is, I do not approve of rape (I was not raped) at all, but my mixed thoughts about it turn into a fantasy of being dominated with the idea of rape in mind (of course, role-playing)

There are plenty of people who have told me about their lives after being raped and I have never seen a rape victim before until then, this was long ago, but they were raped in their pre-teens around the age of 12 or a bit higher and lack any self-esteem.

I can understand what you are going through but I haven't been raped myself and I am glad I have not been.
The only person I would allow to take advantage of me sexually with my permission is my own girlfriend.

Dear Janet,

I don't know that you offended anyone. Certainly not me.

We all have fantasies and they are generally just fine. It's when they stray into the "real" that they become extraordinarily hurtful sometimes.

I do hope that you are everso right and that you are never ever in position to be forced to undergo such an event. Of course, I hope that for everyone who hasn't experienced it.

Nichole

[Cindy]

Dear Janet
You didn't offend me in the slightest, sorry if you thought so.
Just brought back memories that are still raw.
Love
Cindy James

[Alyssa M.]

Really?Just in the past 20 years? So all the violence and ideas like that didn't come from the Dutch, Cecil Rhodes and Omm Paul, etc? To be passed along through Botha and the struggles over apartheid?

Last 20 years = AIDS. That is probably one of the most significant things affecting the current social structure. Blame whomever you want for AIDS, but violence comes with decimated family structures, which comes with AIDS being as widespread as it is in Africa.