I wrote this in a dating site forum, but thought it would apply here also.
I have written a few guys that say they want a relationship and never so much as got a reply. Others I gave my number to and they never called. I know I'm no beauty queen! lol But I don't see myself as ugly.
From the looks of it I'm not alone here trying to find a guy.
What is it that they want? The young model type bombshells? Hey, I understand if someone doesn't feel attracted to me, but don't ignore me.
I, like many of the other girls here seem to have a lot too offer as far as long term relationships go.
Back in the year 2000 I didn't know I was a girl, though my life was torture wanting to be one. I knew even then the odds of finding a straight guy would be next to impossible! I shoved my feelings under the rug for seven years then they came back with violent force in 2008. That's when I started to read about transexuals. It was by accident that I tripped on a site that talks about what a tsgirl feels. It was then that my mind made the connection that I already am a girl! I always new I felt like and wanted to be a girl, I just never made the connection that I already am.
With that said, it renewed my interest in finding a straight guy and pursuing my transition!
I read that guys like tsgirls because they embody the best of what a genetic woman has without the hangups and we're more feminine. HEY! That's me!
Instead, I'm confronted with a lot of porn, players and perverts. I hope my account is not deleted for my candor. I'm not saying all men are like this, but if you talk to some that say they're respectable, they're not. To top it off, I offered help in a few forums as far as fighting for rights and asking what I can do for the ts community and get little to no response! Hey look, if no one cares I'll leave it alone and fight for myself. I said in a blog that I'm beginning to think being "bold" is a sin as far as the ts community goes, sort of feeling like an outcast on many sites that I'm leaving and will soon be leaving. I've been on my own my whole life with this and had no support. It seems the remainder of my life will be spent in the same manner.
I'm finding I'm back to where I was in 2000 as far as guys go, it's next to impossible to find a good guy that will love me for me. I'm not bitter though! I'm happy that I found myself and learned so much along the way.
I guess my question is, am I just conning myself that there are guys that look at the heart and soul rather than the parts you have, your age or whatever?
I'm one of the most self observant people in the world, I think I may tweak my mind a bit to go ahead and continue with my transition, but take the need for a man out of the picture...