if i were to put myself in a certain classification , i would consider myself a transvestite , even though i dislike the term i accept that dressing up in sexy lingerei does turn me on sexually , i used to feelguilty about it , and dispose of my stash of items i had collected , then it would return and i would start purchasing again to fullfill my desire , exposing it to a partner made me feel quite guilty, and so im wary of being to open with anybody new as this would just make things worse, . its not like im gonna say , oh ... i forgot to tell you ...i like to wear womans panties , and they have run a mile in the past , so you can imagine the dialema i now face , as a doctor said to me ... a lepord cant change its spots , so i guess i am what i am and i am not ashamed about what turns me on ,and im not hurting anybody , i feel unhappy when i supress these feelings , so i guess now its time to accept the situation and get on with life and maybe i will find an understanding woman , im 44 now ,so you never whats round the corner , this is the first time i have expressed my thoughts on this subject and hope i have not bored you all , have a nice week, ......candy