I am in the Canadian Army where I am in armoured recce. I joined the army to make a man of myself and when that didn't work I got married and had kids for the same reason, when that didn't work I sought out combat. I killed a lot of people in Afghanistan and it bothers me, not because they didn't deserve it, they definitley deserved it but I didn't kill them because they were evil I killed them to prove I was a man. Anyway after I came home I couldn't take it anymore, I spent another year trying to repress my GID but I cracked eventually. I was on a grenade range trying to figure out the best way to stuff a grenade under my flack vest without being stopped or having shrapnel hurt my buddies but I couldn't do it. I went to my Troop officer instead in tears and told him I was a transsexual and I needed help.
Since then I've been in therapy, started HRT and I begin my RLT at the end of the month. We are lucky in Canada because in the Canadian Forces we are legally protected and the army supports those of us with GID and they pay for the therapy, the hormones and the GRS. As my Sargeant Major said; "I don't give a f*** what's in your pants, just so long as you know your job and stay out of sh**". It hasn't exactly been a easy time since that day on the range but it's better than it was before. The funny thing is that I've met a few transgender people in the army now and I'm sure there is a lot more out there. I know there are definitley men and women trying to get killed in Afghanistan and Iraq right now to end their GID.
