I'm just so fuc*ing mad right now!
It seems like I'm going crazy...
I'm still in the closet and I don't know when will I tell my family and friends about all of this...
That's what's bugging me the most... I just think about my coming out and my life after but I can't come out to anyone!
But the thing that infuriated me today...
I know it was my fault! Because I just don't know how to say "No"!
My brtoher's girlfriend is staying with us for a few days. So today she asked me if she could dye my hair. I was thinking about that last year so I said "sure"... Big mistake!!! After that she wanted me to put some make-up. I didn't want that but eventually I gave up... Like always I didn't know how to say "no". And after that she dressed me in some fancy girly shirt.
And now I feel like... Like nothing!
When I looked myself in the mirror.... I think I don't pass anymore! Not with blond hair. I was so happy lately, because I was passing almost all the time, but now...
It's just killing me...
Have you ever been in this situation?
Oh God...
Sorry for all of this, but I just had to write this...
Or else I would scream!!!
