Anyone can't stand looking at themselves crossdressed?

[Lori]

(Yes I know I did a topic like this before but...)
Before puberty really hit me, I LOVED crossdressing. At first it was just playing with pantyhose/bras, but I later actually dressed up. It felt great, I looked in the mirror and I was just smiling at how cute I looked. I can't really describe it pass this emoticon: ^_^. But when puberty hit, well... I get depressed when I see myself crossdressed. Even more so when the thought that I'll keep getting more and more masculine.. my god my face can't pass anymore... it... used to look cute.

Sigh. Anyone felt the same before?

All the time. I refuse to dress up anymore. It's more depressing than doing nothing at all. Due to weight and age I look like a circus clown dressed for a show where people throw things and laugh.

I used to be able to pass in a lesbian bar. I was more than cute, I was hot. Then the years rolled by and well, It's been over three years since I tried any makeup at all. Clothes and makeup won't make me look like a girl so I don't even bother trying. I have to work on my weight. Hrt is making me look much younger, it's kinda funny. It is like the fountain of youth. Maybe one day this year I can dare to venture into trying again. I just don't want to set myself up for failure at this point. I know what I look like and until I reach my goals, I won't be trying to get pretty and girly.

[barbie]

A little off subject. Sorry

But wouldn't it be fun for a group of us to go shopping together and help each other out like girls do? I get so jealous watching them and wish I had friends to go shopping with 

Also,I want to get my ears pieced. But I want some girlfriends to go with me 

I sometimes go with my female colleague or my wife to shop my own fashion items. My wife recommended several skirts for me. My female colleague recommended an one-piece dress for me last year.

Girls and women know far better than us. They are always helpful when shopping women's stuffs.

Baribe~~

[Janet_Girl]

Cindy, 

My ears have been pierced for 20 plus years.  I got them pierced the last time I tried to transition.  In the time from then to now, I have been questioned about them many times but I just let the question die off without an answer.

Janet

[V M]

You know that feeling when you get made up and feel like there's something missing  Not having ear rings has bugged me for the longest time 

[Lori]

You know that feeling when you get made up and feel like there's something missing  Not having ear rings has bugged me for the longest time 

They make clip ons.

Seriously, go to Claire's in the mall. It's not a big deal to get your ears pierced. I've had mine pierced for almost 10 years now. Just follow instructions on the big bottle of disinfectant they give you and make sure your holes stay clean until they heal. Infected ears are the pits.

[findingreason]

When I dress, it always confused me why I would want to, but then hate what I see in the mirror. I mean I almost wanna run away when I see myself....I look silly sometimes. It makes me wanna take the stuff off sometimes, it just is embarrassing, and shameful. It also seems like cause if I have a male side (androgynous) it just adds to it.

[V M]

When I dress, it always confused me why I would want to, but then hate what I see in the mirror. I mean I almost wanna run away when I see myself....I look silly sometimes. It makes me wanna take the stuff off sometimes, it just is embarrassing, and shameful. It also seems like cause if I have a male side (androgynous) it just adds to it.

I went through a phase like that. I think most folks do. But then I learned to accept myself and as I got better at finding what make up and clothes worked for me, I started liking the person in the mirror more and more. Getting made up so I didn't look and feel like a clown made all the difference in my self acceptance. The more I accepted myself, the more acceptance I received from others 

[Princess Katrina]

They make clip ons.

Seriously, go to Claire's in the mall. It's not big deal to get your ears pierced. I've had mine pierced for almost 10 years now. Just follow instructions on the big bottle of disinfectant they give you and make sure your holes stay clean until they heal. Infected ears are the pits.

Yes, they are. >.< It takes ~6 weeks for them to heal and in the FIFTH week, one of my ears got infected. I had to take the earring out for a couple days while taking anti-biotics and the hole closed up. Then, I was too busy with school to go back and get it re-peirced, so I was stuck with just one earring as a girl all semester. @.@

Getting your ears pierced IS easy, though. ^^ A slight pain (literally), but I got so happy after I got my ears pierced. =3


As for the original topic, I can honestly say I always hated myself dressed as a male/in men's clothing.  In regards to when I was still presenting male, I never dressed in any women's clothing until the day I went full-time, so I can't really comment on that... =\

[Eva Marie]

I went through a phase like that. I think most folks do. But then I learned to accept myself and as I got better at finding what make up and clothes worked for me, I started liking the person in the mirror more and more. Getting made up so I didn't look and feel like a clown made all the difference in my self acceptance. The more I accepted myself, the more acceptance I received from others 

I agree. The first few times I attempted to put on makeup the boy inside shouted "what the *&%$ are you doing?" and I felt bad about it afterward.

Last night the girl inside told the boy inside to shut up, and putting on the makeup felt right afterward. Now I just need to get a lot better at putting on makup and I need to color within the lines 

[Autumn]

Hi Cindy.  (Off topic again.)  My wife gave me pierced ears for my 54th birthday.  When I showed up for work (military installation), my boss said I probably got them both done because I couldn't decide on which one to get pierced.   No problems.

-Kate

I think that was a subtle sexuality joke (the right ear is the 'gay' one)


I hate looking at myself in the mirror with my glasses on, or my hair screwed up, or in clothes that make my body look so boyish. Seeing breast/butt/waist shape makes me happy. Ever since seeing myself with a bra on, I look like I'm missing something without it.

On 'ugly' days where my hair is messed up, I need my glasses, or I feel not so fresh, I pretty much avoid the mirror. I don't want to see. Oddly enough those are some of the days I pass the most. I feel like I come across as the ugliest chick in the town, but somehow that isn't as bad.

Protip: If you're someone who wears glasses a lot, try contacts. Technology has improved and your bare face (with or without makeup) may help your appearance, plus differentiate you from your 'drab' self. I look like i'm 10 years older with my glasses on, or like a really gay man if I look for the appropriately shaped female frames.

[K8]

I think that was a subtle sexuality joke (the right ear is the 'gay' one)

Of course it was.   Part of the joke is that the 'gay' ear can depend on where you live - some places it is the right one and some places the left.  It's just easier to get them both done.  (I have always been strongly heterosexual, strangley enough, but I was never offended by being accused of being gay.)

Back on topic:
Even though I'm living full time now, I get days when I feel very un-feminine.  GGs get those days, too, so perhaps that is progress.   Many days I don't wear makeup, but I always do my eyes - a little liner and mascarra.  I have close-set eyes, and the makeup helps make them appear less that way.  In the end, though, it is not how you look but how you feel inside that is important.

- Kate

[PinkSunshine]

Protip: If you're someone who wears glasses a lot, try contacts. Technology has improved and your bare face (with or without makeup) may help your appearance, plus differentiate you from your 'drab' self. I look like i'm 10 years older with my glasses on, or like a really gay man if I look for the appropriately shaped female frames.

Sadly  , I talked to my eye doctor about them and we did a quick sensitivity test. My eyes were way too sensitive! He gave me a suggestion on how to de-sensitize them so I'll have to wait for the contacts  .

On topic, I don't ever have a problem seeing myself 'cross-dressed.' I don't even consider it that. To me, I'm just putting on my regular clothes. Anything 'drab' is just my 'man' costume. I much prefer to look at me in my regular clothes, and actually feel more comfortable with other people seeing me in them  .

[Janet_Girl]

I have contacts and they definitely help.  Your eyes show up a lot better without glasses.  And my eyes are out of round because of my vision.  Contacts do help.

Janet

[V M]

I have rather sensitive eyes due to injuries. I now wear bi-focals with transition lens. Which took some getting use to after years of better than 20/20 vision. I am now thinking about getting contacts and wearing sun glasses to go outside and reading glasses when nec. 

I like my girly clothes better. But often go about in drab. But most folks think I'm a girl anyway 

[Tammy Hope]

My mom suggested I needed to go ahead and get mine pierced (I've been quietly tempted for a while but she didn't know that) so now I'm kind of obsessed but I'm not going to do it until some money comes in - I'm mostly an idiot but not COMPLETELY.

[chrysalis]

I never gone full tilt with dressing and I usually still have some stubble or body hair or my boy haircut or something. I notice these first, and it scares me, but then I start noticing everything else that isn't perfect. I see flaws everywhere, and suddenly I begin to know the terror that must push so many young girls to anorexia.

I look forward to the day that I can look at my true self in the mirror without feeling afraid or ashamed.

[Khrist]

I know what you mean. When I was little it was a lot easier to blend in with the boys with just a short haircut and ambiguous clothes. Then when puberty hit I felt like a freakshow. Especially at school where people get more aware of sexuality, started calling me a dyke and stuff. It didn't matter too much because of dress code of course (they were strict about everyone wearing white polo shirts), but you know how kids are.
And these days it's just damn near impossible to look the way I want, especially because I'm a bit heavy. :/

[Princess Katrina]

Protip: If you're someone who wears glasses a lot, try contacts. Technology has improved and your bare face (with or without makeup) may help your appearance, plus differentiate you from your 'drab' self. I look like i'm 10 years older with my glasses on, or like a really gay man if I look for the appropriately shaped female frames.

The right glasses can make a difference, too. My "new" (almost a year old now lol...) glasses are identical to my mum's, except for color (which was a pure coincidence, she wasn't around when I bought mine, we just have similar taste lol) and the first time my dad looked at me and actually saw a girl standing there was the first time he saw me wearing those glasses. I tend to feel a bit nervous without them now, though I know that I pass fine with and without them...

[gennee]

I just love being crossdressed. I see the many pretty styles and want a lot of them. I'm 60 and am somewhat conservative in my dressing but I want to be stylish also. I've changed emotionally since I started dressing four years ago. I just keep evolving.

Gennee

[K8]

The right glasses can make a difference, too. My "new" (almost a year old now lol...) glasses are identical to my mum's, except for color (which was a pure coincidence, she wasn't around when I bought mine, we just have similar taste lol) and the first time my dad looked at me and actually saw a girl standing there was the first time he saw me wearing those glasses. I tend to feel a bit nervous without them now, though I know that I pass fine with and without them...

It's funny, but thinking back one of the very first steps in my transition was getting new glasses.  The place I bought them has men's, women's, and unisex.  I would always wistfully look at the women's but was afraid to spend that kind of money on something that would just look weird on me.  So I got a pair from the unisex section.  That seemed to open a lot of doors for me.

With luck, the pieces just start falling into place at some point. 

- Kate