wendy:
wow i can relate to a lot of what you said.
In contrast I loved contact sports i liked the smell and the touch the closeness and all of that.
The fear of losing to a gang or mob because of a perceived 'Natural weakness ' plagued me most of my early life.
Only lately I have come to discover clearly that is the philosophy behind the attitude that creates a buffer zone yet sooner or later someone will be challanging that. BAck then it would have not been of any help anyways, things are different now am not afraid to walk alone day or night. BAck hten it was very risky.
When I accepted my Transexualness as opposed to being a girly girl, that freed me to transition freely between my masculine and adrenalitic qualities when needed and my estrogenic needs to live life, is part of my tool box why not use it and pretend that i don't have it? Which is like when in my boy days I try to pretend that I did not have this urging desire to feel like a woman and live like a woman, same principle i figured
Yes i figured that there will be disadvantages to being a woman simply because they are still discriminated in so many ways, polite ways but just the same unless you are into the Stefford Wife Girly Girl thing
enough out of me
have a great day, sheial18
