I've been on antidepressants since I was eight, when I had severe panic disorder that required me to take very powerful meds that are only used nowadays for people with obsessive compulsive disorder. I don't know if anyone has heard of it, because it is rather uncommon as compared to Zoloft, but I have been on Fluvoxamine longer than has even been tested by doctors. But I am now weaning off.
I don't really know what a sex drive is. I don't identify, nor associate, with that part of my body. I've had dreams of feeling differently, but in those dreams I have male anatomy. I don't know whether it's dysphoria or the medication, but I have never felt self stimulation to be worth a cent. Nor have I had a sexual partner. Nor do I feel the need to. But in the back of my mind, there's always these "what if" scenarios. I wonder if, in the future should I be more comfortable with my body after transitioning, I'd be able to pursue relationships, or enjoy sexuality. For now, it's pretty vague.
But from what I figure, the medication did indeed do things to my sex drive. But seeing as I've been on it since before I started puberty, I've never known the difference. Sort of odd, isn't it?
