Just wanted to post a hello, a little about me...
My name's Chris, I'm 22 and just really embracing the idea of being FtM. Well...that's not entirely true; I actually went in my final year of high school as male, as transferring to a new school my Senior year gave me the freedom my previous one hadn't allowed. It was probably my best year of school, even with the added worry each morning of wondering if I passed or not (the back pain from a binder didn't help either). I did, however, go back to living as female until just recently, primarily to my family's reaction to it...it got to the point that I couldn't bring any friends home because my mother would burst into tears at the table, as if someone had killed her daughter...and my dad would just out me on the spot (which led up to interesting questions later...).
I didn't really have the support of anyone the last time I actually came out as transgendered...and hence why I'm here. I'm a social person really, and the feeling that I was totally alone before kept me from keeping my promise to myself and instead sunk back into what my family and "friends" wanted me to be...and I'm honestly tired of being ashamed every time someone mentions the time when everyone called me Chris and treated me like i wanted them to, because it kind of feels like I betrayed myself.
If it seems like I'm rambling, it's because it's 5 am and I haven't slept yet. Other tidbits about me...i'm bisexual (family doesn't know yet, I get to hit them with a double), I've been in school for video game design and I love computers, games and cars. I'm a nonsmoker currently, though I used to smoke because it lowered my voice (though my voice doesn't pass now for anyone older than 15....-_-).
Off to bed with me. Adios, and here's hoping this wasn't a big mistake!
P.S. Backstory on the name..."DamagedChris" because that's the word my mother used to describe me to my therapist when I told her I wanted to be male..."damaged".
