Feeling like I want to start being me full time! +told my grandma and brothers

[Myself]

Due to my new experiences after the laser hair removal, detailed here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,64417.msg426576.html#new

I been feeling as if I want to start being myself full time now!
I am still a bit afraid, as still even with the good things, my gender is still being confused by the people around me (and by that I mean people who don't know me) which is a bit depressing.

But then again, I am really having the feeling that I want to be me already..

I told my grandma and brothers about me finally. I am really happy my grandmother took it so well! I mean, surprisingly well
She later told me she is happy that I told her and she supports me and loves me - it meant a lot to me

There are some major cons to being full time now!
1. I am living in a kibbutz, a kibbutz is an israeli thing. it's like a village with about 200 families total - Most of them are quite old people and some are probably not very open minded. Not only that but gossip is the main activity in here.
2. the reason explained in the thread about my facial hair experience.. I just want to pass fully and completely.
3. ID is not changed and is hard to change.

There are some really good reasons why to start being full time though
1. All the reasons against can be dealt with, even if not right away, they might be fixed very soon. I heard there are tricks to get the ID changed sooner, the kibbutz people is more like of an excuse and the second reason against will be fixed slowly with a bit of surgery, now that I found some cheap surgical options in Israel.
2. I am female! why should I be pretending to be male?
3. I will be able to act without boundaries.
4. I'd open myself for things like a job, friendships, things that I will never imagine to do when I am expected to be a guy. even if against reason number 2 still conflicts, I might should start and improve myself later, so later things might just be natural completely

But I think, no matter what, I will be waiting until the next laser treatment to see how the hair growth might be over the time.

Would love to here opinions!

[K8]

It's hard to decide when to start full-time.  For me, I had it all planned out when I would start and then one day, several months before my planned date I just decided it was time.  Each of our situations is different.  Only you can decide when the time is right for you.  In my very limited experience, I think you will just know when it is time.

I don't think that it is a set of factors - X amount of hair removal, Y months on hormones, Z number of people told - it is more of a judgement when the time is right.  Part of it is your eagerness to start, but mostly it is just a feeling that the planets are lined up or something and you and the world around you are ready for this.

Good luck.  There will be bumps in the beginning.  You aren't going to pass 100% from the start.  Some people may be slow accepting you in your new role.  It isn't like throwing a switch from living male to living female - it is a change that you and all around you gradually adjust to.

But if this is what you need, and this is what is right for you, it will all be worth it.

*hugs*
Kate