Due to my new experiences after the laser hair removal, detailed here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,64417.msg426576.html#newI been feeling as if I want to start being myself full time now!
I am still a bit afraid, as still even with the good things, my gender is still being confused by the people around me (and by that I mean people who don't know me) which is a bit depressing.
But then again, I am really having the feeling that I want to be me already..
I told my grandma and brothers about me finally. I am really happy my grandmother took it so well! I mean, surprisingly well

She later told me she is happy that I told her and she supports me and loves me - it meant a lot to me

There are some major cons to being full time now!
1. I am living in a kibbutz, a kibbutz is an israeli thing. it's like a village with about 200 families total - Most of them are quite old people and some are probably not very open minded. Not only that but gossip is the main activity in here.
2. the reason explained in the thread about my facial hair experience.. I just want to pass fully and completely.
3. ID is not changed and is hard to change.
There are some really good reasons why to start being full time though
1. All the reasons against can be dealt with, even if not right away, they might be fixed very soon. I heard there are tricks to get the ID changed sooner, the kibbutz people is more like of an excuse and the second reason against will be fixed slowly with a bit of surgery, now that I found some cheap surgical options in Israel.
2. I am female! why should I be pretending to be male?
3. I will be able to act without boundaries.
4. I'd open myself for things like a job, friendships, things that I will never imagine to do when I am expected to be a guy. even if against reason number 2 still conflicts, I might should start and improve myself later, so later things might just be natural completely

But I think, no matter what, I will be waiting until the next laser treatment to see how the hair growth might be over the time.
Would love to here opinions!