Finally Serious about Surgery!

[Tank Grrl]

Hi all! I am SO happy i found this place! Yay!

I have been on hormones for over a year and a half now and it's brought welcome change. I truly feel so much more "at home" in my body now.

I was not too keen in the past about having SRS partly because:
1. surgery really used to freak me out.
2. I had befriended a post-op woman who is VERY unhappy with her results.

My opinion began to change around the 1yr. on HRT point. I had knee surgery a while before this, so that REALLY helped alleviate my surgery fears. Also I couldn't believe how subtle yet profound the changes to my body/mind/spirit were. I don't know how to describe it without sounding cliche. Anyhow, I befriended several post-op women who were thrilled with their results, and they were also happy to let me see their results up close.(both went to Suporn) I was very impressed. They are both orgasmic too. That was the clincher. I decided to do everything in my power to be able to afford SRS. Yeah, I'm planning to work two jobs to try to save enough in two years time.

I should also mention that if it weren't for the arseholes at the counseling place I was going to, I would have started HRT almost FOUR years ago. They refused to give me the letter, so I quit going for a long time and then had to go back and start all over!! I really didn't want to get the hormones illegally, so I had to play their game. I told them if they denied me again I WAS going to get hormones however I had to. I damn near committed suicide in the interim also! there was no 'attempt', since I have a gun, my attempt would have been a 'success', but I did put the loaded pistol in my mouth and began to squeeze the trigger. Anyhow, I didn't do it, I decided I wanted to live, but more importantly, I wanted to; no I HAD to transition, or die trying!

Well, I have at least a million questions, but mostly my current SRS fears revolve around:
1. Sensation
2. Bladder Control(or loss thereof)
3. Orgasm
4. Appearance
   
Any advice, criticisms, etc. anyone has please feel free to share. Thanks!
Post Merge: September 07, 2009, 07:30:41 PM
Sorry, i meant to post this in the SRS forum!!

[Hannah]

Hey you, hi there 

I've heard you can have an epidural and actually watch them operate on your knee. Is that true?

[Tank Grrl]

Yeah, i watched them do my knee surgery on a little monitor, it was pretty weird.

[mmelny]

Well, I have at least a million questions, but mostly my current SRS fears revolve around:
1. Sensation
2. Bladder Control(or loss thereof)
3. Orgasm
4. Appearance
   
Any advice, criticisms, etc. anyone has please feel free to share. Thanks!
Post Merge: September 07, 2009, 07:30:41 PM
Sorry, i meant to post this in the SRS forum!!

Hiya Tank Grrl,

I can't offer up too much from personal experience, other then to say that I have two very close friends, both post-op with Suporn, and they are extremely happy with his work, and they let me see, up close, too, *giggles*.  I was impressed enough, that i booked my surgery for next January with him.   And another of my friends leaves soon for yes, you guessed it, Chonburi, for a date with Dr Suporn.   I can't wait, and out of the 4 issues you posted, which were present in my mind too, my two friends had no problems with any of those 4 items, and frankly, they haven't had issues that would require revisions.  Of course there's never ever guarantees.   

But I can relate.   Going into transition, I was decidedly Non-OP.   And then those feelings just gradually changed.   I saw my friends go under the SRS knife, I started researching.   I saw my friends results, and I started projecting myself post-op, and knew that it was just right.  What I was born with, has never functioned correctly, mentally or physically.   And as transition has progressed, the decision to have SRS was so right for me once I learned more about it, and negated the fears in my mind.  There are risks for sure, but the rewards are so great.

Best of luck, welcome to Susan's!

*Huggs*,
Melan

[Tank Grrl]

Yeah, Suporn is definitely my first choice too.

The guy I've been sorta seeing seems to have no problem with me being pre-op. but, when we are intimate, as soon as I get aroused, I feel VERY awkward with what I've got down there. It just that the rest of my body looks and feels female, except for that one little bit!