I apologize ahead of time for bringing an old thread back from the dead. I know a lot of folks hate it when necro-threads are posted in, but I do not see the point in starting a new topic when it already exists. After all, when someone enters something in the search thread it includes things from all dates. This is for the guests hiding away and members as well. Since I am a member of this forum already, I do not see the harm in adding to this. I want to bring hope for folks just starting their journey.
I would like to add that yes, while not everyone might get the "apple" it is totally possible! It's one of the things I hoped for the most because for me personally it feels important to "pass" for now.
I can't contain my own excitement in discovering all the sudden I noticed the lump in my throat. I thought it was because I was bending my neck in a strange way. At times I could feel it but only if I bent my neck back a bit. Yet, just a few days ago I noticed my throat was getting extremely sore (this is actually rare, it's never squeaked and rarely cracks) but I noticed an adam's apple growing! It's actually becoming very prominent just from a few days! This is quite a new milestone in a way for me... so I'll put up with the pain. It's a good pain!
I've been T for 1 year and 8 months or so (according to my tracker also), but I started out at 0.25, then it was increased to 0.50 after 6 months and I'm now on 0.75. I've only been on 0.75 for a few months now. I was worried at first that because of dose being not full, I never thought anything would actually show up. But now I am grateful for the lower dose as it's allowed my body and especially my throat to adjust smoothly. I had to remind myself even cisborn males don't have things happen in just a year, but up to 14 years or more!
My voice really only has begun reaching a male-ish tremor? (is that the right term, ya know.. the effect that adds graveliness n junk) and depth, and knowing that it's not even finished? My voice is (might be, but likely) to be kinda deep once it does finally settle. I was lucky, though that even before this I sounded like a boy, talked like a boy, yadda yadda. My singing voice is pretty much wrecked for now (it used to be one of my natural born gifts), but all but lost. On a good day, I can pretty much emulate Elvis shockingly enough, haha.
It's hard to not be impatient and want a higher dose just to get the effects faster. But I get sirred more consistently, especially on the phone. And now in person! So, nothing really is impossible. Adam's apples CAN happen for those lucky folks who thought it'd never happen. I know it's not the most important thing in transition, but it can definitely help with looking naturally male/feeling more confindent. That it's not just "passing" anymore. I've always noticed and envied men with big adam's apples and deep voices. It's one of the first thing I notice on a person (other than their teeth, blegh). Now that it's actually happening to me, I am just beside myself!
I'm not looking for congratulations, just throwing in my input and encouragement for future readers. Don't get impatient. It can happen, and eventually will. I know, I know 'your mileage may vary'. The worst thing you can do is compare yourself to others, you'll just put yourself down. Yet, don't give up.
My greatest example to highlight is the actor Ralph Macchio. Did you realize he was actually 23 in the Karate Kid movie? He looked and sounded like a 14 year old to me, lol. His voice didn't drop until many years later. So yea... this is natural! It happens to cisfolk, too. It's alllll good. Some of us are just late bloomers.
