Hi guys sorry its been so long since iv been on. A lot had happened since i last came on. I had told my family my plans they said some pretty harsh stuff like i am sick and going against god.
My god mother on the other hand has been very understanding and is there for me.
Iv tried too do alot these past few months too move foward.
In the space of a month i cut back on junk food iv quit smoking for health reasons so that when i start on hrt i wont be at as much risk if i was too remain smoking and remain overweight.
I am 6ft3 i used too weight 22 stone iv dropped too 19.5 which is a start i aim for 12 stone.
Iv gone too college too take up photography so i can get a job in that field. Iv also have plans too move out of my familys house and rent a place at the beggining of next year.
This is when i will be debt free and can afford too move out.
Iv been too my doctor who referred me too mental health as he said they can get me the right referrals
and within 2 weeks they had referred me too
a psychosexualy therapist "which i dont know much about"
But iv been told they can refer people too the gender clinic here in london / uk.
Iv also managed too grow my hair real long and iv made a new friend who i hope too go stay with soon and spend a few days as sarah and actualy going out as sarah in a town where the community accepts us.
My family have made it clear that they dont want too see me if i live as sarah and these past two weeks have been upsetting and my mum and dad are having a hard time i dont think they will ever accept me as sarah.
they have said some hurtfull things which enarly stopped me from moving forward i just wanted too give up but i did not. My gp has been greate and done follow ups too see if everything is going smoothly.
Im not sure what too expect when seeing the psychosexual therapist but i will hear from him by 8th of october.
My mum she makes comments on how i should cut my hair as boys dont have hair that long and how im a good boy.
I dont like upsetting my family and in the past i spent a year trying to supress/ignore my feelings so i would not upset them but in the end i was hurting.
I dont know what is going too happen when i move out but i believe i will make it and i do feel that i want hrt & srs
its taken a lot of hard work too try and get my weight down and quit smoking but i did it because i know its got too happen if i am too live as my female self.
Iv also taken a photo as my feminine self
Im not very good with make up yet
