called the genderteam (interdisciplinary care unit for TG in Netherlands), (actually called last friday)
got my first appointment for intake, on 20/10, which is way sooner than I expected. Usually they make you wait for like a month.
I've been working on finding my own way socially in the TG community and with the help of an independent gender therapist, and put off calling the hospital until now.
Guess I'm finally ready to take the next step(s).

I'm scared, still, but more excited. Actually, I'm much more relaxed than I thought I'd be. This just feels right.