My entire life I was "Blessed" with a freakishly fast metabolism, and it was sped up even more by how much more physical activity I did, gender repression nonsense in my night life, and the worst caffeine addiction known to humankind.
So I start HRT in hopes of it being a clean fresh start... To GAIN fat weight cause I looked like a methhead by that point... And it worked. But then, I recently found out that I probably have eosinophilic Esophagitis, a condition that would or could be the cause of me being allergic to more and more new things.
So to make a long story short. The list of foods I can consume without my esophagus attacking itself and in a painful 4 hours getting anaphylaxis basically.... Has been shrinking. One staple by another as long as a complex protein makes them up... And I NEED those
So I'm REALLY scared of this ruining me and taking away my femininity that just seemed to be working before... Like my dream of resetting and living a more, "Wholesome. Eating, sleeping, loving, sexual, social, art school" Life.
I lost 10 pounds. I'm so scared to lose more. I know some of it could have been muscle but my eating schedule is VERY sporadic now. It might slow the metabolism down a little yeah, but I've lost 10 and I'm thanking evil gods that I haven't lost my ass and breasts completely...

So yeah. I freaking worry all the time.