Girl brain

[alexia elliot]

Hey Mindy, pound for pound we are quite bit of a woman . Joking aside visit my website by clicking little Globe icon underneath my avatar, there chose link to female curve, a website I dedicated to hormone info. I am on HRT for past 8 months and wonderful changes have been happening also you can read my Unnatural Woman log in the main site for HRT info and how it acts in the metamorphosis.
Alexia.

[krisalyx]

BINGO!! about time someone else figurered it out i've always said that i've got a girl brain and yes i know it confuses people sometime and trying to explan my problems to my friend (who by the way loves me for who i am warts and all)

[justmeinoz]

Hi Alexia, what you have posted sounds a lot like what I am starting to experience with regard to emotions.

I think I fit into the spectrum as "psychological androgyne", I am not too concerned with the body at present, finances preclude any changes for the moment anyway. There are times I would like a change but I don't think I have the degree of need a classic TS does.

However I do find myself reacting in what I would regard as a stereotypical way emotionally a lot lately, and looking back I can see it actually was there all along, just buried.  I am separated  so don't need to worry about a SO's reactions fortunately.  Dressing is something I can do to any degree whenever I want at home, so there is an upside to that part of my life after all.

Personally I think your photo looks a bit like Catherine Zeta Jones to be honest, and that's ok in my book!

[Eva Marie]

As an androgyne, I also have (part of) a girls brain. It caused me all manner of problems when I was a boy, and problems trying to live as a man, and I never could figure out WHY I was different from the other men, and why I just didn't "fit in" with them.

Now I know what the deal is, and why it is that I have real friction with a few macho male coworkers.

But, I can also see how it has helped me through the years, especially in my career, which involves a lot of creativity. And i'm also able to see my wife's side of an argument, which has resulted in me losing quite a few arguments with her, because we eventually see things the same way 

[barbie]

I am not quite sure whether this is related with my transsexualism, but I remember that I had been teased and called as a crybaby until I became adult. I was so much emotional like girls. After marriage, I seldom cry, probably because my wife is so much emotional to easily cry. If both of us cry so easily, then it would make some troubles for our kids 

Combined with feminine physique and face, some of my old friends used to comment like you are a perfect woman. When we meet together in about 30 years, they still remember it, commenting that I had tendency of transgender in my teens. Their responses have never been negative. Even I wear skirts, they are not surprised.

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[krisalyx]

well i'll be damned looks like us girls do have something in common same thing here with me it was my legs it was always "you walk like a girl quit being such a sissy" but i am a girl well at least "points to head & points to heart" if not yet then someday soon and that's a promise

[Cindy]

Funnily I never thought I had a male and female perspective. I always thought that all guys wanted to be girls and that we had some choice about it . I remember distinctly when I came out to M&D at 13 (and yes I was a young 13). I'd just a bath, since it was in Liverpool in 1966 it would have been a sunday (sorry about that a pom joke ). My older sister Ann had been showing me her boobs, small but there, and she was very pleased with herself. She also told me she was having her period. With a very smug look (BTW she is 12 months older than me, and no, no incest implied; she knew I wore her clothes regularly). So I went down stairs in my dressing gown and said to my Mum and Dad sitting in the lounge, "Look I haven't any boobies growing and Ann has a period (not sure what it was BTW) when do I get one.

After being told I was a boy, I immediatly got very angry saying, no I'm not I'm a girl, I'm a girl. I don't want to be a boy.

Things basically went down hill from there.

I am a girl (well a woman) no choice, no decison, no arguement.

Hugs

Cindy

[Rose2Me]

I am a girl (well a woman) no choice, no decison, no arguement.

I think many of us do have your degree of sureness in oneself, although there is much variation in how we perceive ourselves.  Many are 100% feminine, while others strike a balance between the male and female sides. 

Rose 

[alexia elliot]

Hi girls, I have been away for a while. Thank you so much Justmeinoz for kind words, with the crew of 10 make up artists, 2 light specialists, and 4  6'6'', 355lbs football players next to me I might somewhat resemble Katherina, however in all reality it will be some time( if ever), but your statement awakens my desire to fight on, Thanks.
I think Rose is right on, we come in all shape and sizes and our perception of who we ought to be. I frankly started to believe that there is more to this gender issue than 2 sides(male and female). I am sure as to how a mix of male and female creates infinite possibility for shades of gray. The degree of one versus the other and perhaps another ingredient not known to us yet. Also, is it who we know we are that we are striving for or is it who we like to be that creates our desire to change. 
Love Alexia.

[noeleena]

Hi...
   When you can accept your self . & this can be hard . not so much as to how you look . as a woman . then if you like you can go any were & be accepted .
As one of my friends said to me . after i came back from phuket . in july 07 . & i was going to join up in our edwardin group . of cause she & every one else knew  me.  i was not sure if . i could be accepted as a woman & be in & a part of womens groups . she said to me . & this some times takes time to really sink in . 
    your a woman .  then be one . i said rather sheepisly   oh ya .   i will .
  The thing is i allways was just not allowed to be one . yet being a andro . allowed me to think both as male & female .dual thinking . no both to gether & at the same time . i did not seperate  the two .  strange yet thats who i am . so many of the details you have said are much like how i was .
Now of cause i can be myself . with out those tack on s. or the not allowed  & be & express my self . so far just over 11 years ...& its neat ....

   ...noeleena...

[alexia elliot]

We do talk a lot about who one might truly be and finding your self yet, I at least, am not sure we understand the fundamental self. As I have deducted through ventures into psycho-analytical-philosophy on my self, I feel all we actually are is a deposit of all interaction and interrelation with the world around us since we are born up to present. Every thought, every emotional aspect of our self is a product of our relationship with the world and how we think the world perceives us(all those people, scenarios and stimuli). Fundamentally then self is non negotiable, non judgmental, non descriptive, it just is, not a girl, not a boy, not a pretty, not a fat, it just is YOU without conditions! So to truly find your self all you need is to close your eyes, take a deep breath and fall into a semi sleep and do not contaminate your psyche with thoughts but allow self emerge without conditions which deprive it from being free.

Oh well, it is just my theory, I might be wrong , but then I might be rite .
Love, Alexia .

[EveMarie]

alexia, when I started my "trip" down the transition highway I did a lot of research also. I came across this article I think you might find interesting: http://www.docbushong.com/pubs/what_is_gender.asp
It explained a lot to me and at the same time opened a very big can of worms. I like the way the "5 attributes" are broken down, it made a great deal of sense to me.
I'll be starting HRT shortly and would love to stay in touch, so as you progress with yours, I might have someone to "compare notes" with.

Good luck sweetie, Evie

[alexia elliot]

EveMarie, wow, you are a blessing for I have just clinically validated my suspicions. Thank you, and I will be back here once I am done with an article.
Love, Alexia.
Post Merge: January 10, 2010, 12:58:11 PM
I have cried like a little girl at the end, just as Dr. describes a 12 year old girl being freed from grasp of a false male persona. Rite on the spot, I felt it in my sole. It will take bulldozers to take down the testosterone reinforced concrete shell, and let me tell you, built like a German Bunker, but the journey has started 8 months ago and has been waited on all my life. Thanks again for the link, it has illuminated a crack I felt before in the structure.
And I am soooo ready!

[EveMarie]

congrats luv, glad I could offer the link. A tear comes to my eyes reading about your happiness.
Evle

[Kimberley]

We are all different but at the same time very similar. I agree with alexia about the dual brain mode. Men and women look at the same thing in a different way. The female mind takes in more detail quickly and is much more emotional. I prefer my femme mode of thinking.

[alexia elliot]

Clarity only lasts short while, then vagueness surrounds and back to square one. I just have seen shorts from RuPauls drag race and looking at the contestants, one theme is solid as a brick, they all are fem, fem, fem, queeeeens all the way. I am nothing of a sort, never was. In my thinking, emotionally, yes but on the outside never. Now, has it to do with the environment which suppressed my fem, pear-pressure, or is it that I never had it in the first place. If latter is correct then am I truly all the woman I think I am or am I just imagining things?

[EveMarie]

It''ll come back Alexia, I've seen a few episodes of Ru Paul's show and I agree. (no offense meant girls) but they remind me of a screaming gay circus on steroids. I've known a few ladies like that out on the west coast and the "girls" that are sooooo gay, and over exaggerate everything femme they can, like hand gestures, butt wiggle, voice inflection, etc. They're more over the femme top than most GG's I know.

I'm a dignafied woman inside, and I want my persona to reflect that. I don't need to make sure everyone in a city block radius sees and knows I'm "out", I just "fit in". to quote an old sailor I knew, "I yams what I yams, and I aint's no more..."

now, where's my spinach?

[tekla]

remind me of a screaming gay circus on steroids

Actually you need an 's' after the 'remind' part, but ignore that... Girl Brain sounds to me like Barbie saying "Math is so hard!"  As it turns out being stupid, or shopping, is not the prerequisite for being a girl.

[GingerCD]

I understand where you are coming from.  While I do confine my dressing to the weekends, there are plenty of times that I can't attend to the other daily feminie activites that I also relish, like shaving, doing my nails, etc.  Many weekends are also filled up with committments that I can not spend a morning, afternoon, or evening dressing up as I like, spending time as myself, Rose.  I make do with the usual assortment of hidden clothing at work or at home, and reassure myself that I am still there when I feel the tops of my stockings through the lining of my pants pockets.  Still there is that blue feeling that comes over you when you are not allowed to show yourself to the sun, even if it is just the sun coming in through the bedroom window.

Rose

That sums me up in a nutshell. I do wear the "unmentionables" every day now. Dress when I can. I love skirts and dresses, although, I just introduced myself to "skinny" jeans. Those and an nice top, I am set to go. I haven't had as much luck with shoes. I have one pair of flats and jogging shoes, oh and a cute pair of white sandals that will be seen this summer. I am so glad I found this forum. I was beginning to think that I was destined to live my life in private.

Ginger

[Rose2Me]

...I am so glad I found this forum. I was beginning to think that I was destined to live my life in private.

Ginger

Having a place where one can talk freely, without threat of being ostracized, is a true comfort.  Where else can one reveal wearing women's underwear under "manly" work clothes on an almost daily basis?  I love the time I can spend as Rose, and am glad I can share her with others.

Rose