I think it's ironic that when someone transitions everyone freaks out and goes OMG, you can't, that's wrong, etc... and then when someone either de-transitions or whatever one might call it, you get exactly the same thing: OMG, you can't, that's wrong. LMFAO!
I got that when I ran around and did a drag king show, and when I shaved my head except the front bangs, wear boy clothes, LOL. I don't know, I don't get it. Then again, I never de-transitioned or anything... clothes, hair, that's just me. I really didn't get the hoopla that I'd get from the trans community over such things. The OMG your hair isn't long, and the OMG, you're not wearing a skirt and those are boy clothes your wearing, OMG, you don't have make up on! *world ends x_x *
I think, sometimes people just need to focus on being themselves rather than being some ideal of what a woman or a man is or should look like or act. Sometimes I run into people who are searching to be something other than themselves, and I'm not sure if that should really be the goal. Transition, really, should be just about being who you are, whatever that is. Then, again, I'm a lot more liberal than other T-folk are with issues.
I'd say explore things. Take your time exploring things. Wear some boy clothes. Maybe even get a fake mustache and try it out for a while. It's always important to find you, where ever that leads you.
I don't even always like the word transition, 'cause really transition implies your changing into something else, but really you're supposed to becoming yourself... not someone else. Then, again, I never got the part when t-folk talk about themselves, or rather, old selves in 3rd person... like it's a different person. John was, kate was, and then even more confusing, with some of the... I guess famous, or ones I see on tv who have "de-transitioned" (a term that doesn't even make sense to me, but transitioned doesn't either) will talk about their old self, say John, and then their woman self, say Kate, and then their newer self, say Joe. Kinda sounds like a case of multiple personalities to me, in a weird way. Well, then again, I guess it's natural for one to want to form a dissociation with a perceived past-self or identity. *shrugs* I don't know, to each his or her own, I guess... I guess I failed T-101 class. LOL
Anyway, sorry for that ramble -- I'd say totally explore. Be who you are. Be yourself -- and the only way you can do that is explore a little.