Im confused about myself

[x-icecubes-x]

From a young age....Ive never really felt completely female. I used to get my mum to buy me boys clothes....with the excuse of the different patterns I liked. At around 6 years of age, I had my hair cut to a shoulder length....so I didnt have to tie it up for school. I used to play with boys, and always wanted to be one when playing make believe games.

Up until I was around 12 I didnt have a problem with dressing and acting in this way....then one day I suddenly realised the other girls around me, and felt I had to change my ideas and become one. I started getting back into girls clothes, but was still never really involved.

For the next two years I felt fine. I felt as if gender didnt matter, and I did as I pleased no matter who I really was inside and out. But recently the feelings have been coming and going.... Somedays I feel fine being a girl, I can enjoy myself and not worry about a thing! But then there are other days where I am a little sad with who I am....only wishing I was born a boy. I feel as if I get jealous of other boys, and how lucky they are to be who they are. Ive never worn makeup and am not that into jewellery, Id rather spend the day bike riding instead.

Im really confused.....cause one day Im happy with being a girl and the next Im wishing I was born male. I love the internet tho, cause it lets me be who I wanna be....and 9 times out of 10 I feel more enjoyment when being a boy. Whats going on!


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[Silver]

You might be FTM. Or something else under the "transgender" umbrella.

See a therapist.

Welcome to Susans.

[Debra]

Welcome ice cubes!

Yes it's very possible you could be a Female to Male Transsexual but none of us really have the credentials to verify such a thing. I can't say enough how important it is to see a counselor about this although it might be hard to do at 15 without causing suspicion from parents. But I do believe that most counselors cannot tell private information from sessions to others, I think that includes parents....unless of course it's information having to do with the potential for harm to come to you or someone else.

Just make sure you find a counselor that has some kind of experience with GID (Gender Identity Disorder). Worse than not getting a therapist is getting a therapist that doesn't know anything about the subject.

I wish you luck!!

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Ice Cubes,

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[notyouraverageguy]

Hi, and welcome.