I've lived alone for about the last 3 years, since getting a divorce.
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I understand where you're coming from. I really withdrew a lot these last few years, and haven't gotten out of the house much. Being alone really dulls your social skills (moreso if you're particularly quiet anyway), especially if the only time you ever talk to others is at work.
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On the the one hand, I don't like it. It is very lonely.
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On the other hand, for me it's about survival. It's really the first time in my life that I have lived completely alone. Marriage almost completely destroyed me, more than I thought anything could. I'm not even close to considering the possibility of a relationship again, and being trans really narrows the prospective field of roomates.
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Sometimes being alone isn't what you want to do...it's just what is necessary for now...to heal...to grow...to begin again.