Hey everybody,
For the last 2 days I've been at the Hyatt Hotel for a company Christmas party that my Uncle is to attend. You're allowed to bring up to 3 guests and my Uncle Berry ended up choosing: My Mother, My Mother's Boyfriend and...ME.
I was shocked even though I've gone to this Christmas company party for the last 3 years before this one! You might ask why but ever since this year where I "Came out of the closet" as an Trans, Berry has been quiet and an little off. He says he accepts me but still calls me male terms...Etc. Etc., So it's weird...
To add to the chance of confusion my Mother told me, "Well you decide, are you going to go as an male or female?", this was strangely odd as two days prior to this question me and my Mother were at an counseling session with my Counselor Rosemary (Which I spoke about in a different thread) and how my Mother was getting mad, red-faced and slammed out of the room. Ending the session abruptly.
Now my own Mother who partly accepts me but for some unknowing reason changes this just like how people go through panties! It's crazy! So I ended up saying I wanted to go as ME. Which if in some crazy way you don't understand that's codeword for FEMALE!
So my Mom ended up giving me an rose dress that she owned! (Another oddity) and when I was done with makeup she handed me some ironed female slacks (I ended up looking like some business-women) and finally after clothes and makeup was done she squirted me with a little bit of her perfume, White Diamonds.
In my mind I was thinking this was the most bizarre thing ever...And despite passing, fully being me internally and externally and just overall feeling feminine...I
somewhere felt in my heart uncomfortable...This is so something my Mother would never do in an million years and for the fact she did it made me feel awkward.
Moving on as this topic is getting long! Everyone got dressed up, we left the house and some time later we got to the Hyatt Hotel! Checked in. Went to our rooms. Got ready and refreshed again and...Just as my heart was beating rapidly like crimson butterflies. We evacuated the hotel room and headed down to the Grand Ballroom where his company "owned" the room for the night.
Skipping ahead again; I shook hands with people that Berry worked with who knew me from the past parties and people who met me for the very first time. Right now you 'oughta be thinking that this whole scenario was stifled with the feeling of awkwardness but since Berry told
some of his co-workers about me an long time ago it wasn't a huge surprise for them. But the majority of the party Berry didn't work with. Didn't know me. Nor my story. Only about 7 people there knew about me out of 500.
The ballroom was extremely dashing and resilient in the point of what it normally looks like to the now huge dance floor and DJ. Though after the party it's pliable for it to change back again.
I danced on that freakin' dance floor for like 3 hours!!! I was SWEATING! And getting my hips and money maker shaking! Haha!
Then...This one guy asked me to dance! (GASP!!!), first I was off-struck but suddenly out of nowhere internal-courage and the fact that the guy was sooooo freakin' cute got me to dance with him to a romantic slow song...It was so adorable...He smelt good and we both knew how to dance to this particular slow beat.
We looked eye and eye and he said that I had the most beautifulest blue eyes he has ever gazed at. I knew he wasn't BS-ing me because I knew that guy before I "came out" and even then he was one of the few people who still accepted me and said that he has always seen me as an female and that I'm beautiful to him.
So we danced and danced...Which seemed like forever...Just like a Twilight movie scene...Then finally the next song in alignment was an fast, bump-and-grind kind of song and taking me by the hand again me and him danced...We got a little bit rowdy but not so much like the drunken other souls out there who were going way more past PG-13.
Finally after all that, he had to go and he kissed me on the cheek and left...The party ends at midnight and it was 11:57 P.M., so I went to go find my Mom, her Boyfriend and Berry and finally finding them we headed to our hotel room which was payed for by the company so that for anyone who got drunk wouldn't drive home and would sleep overnight at the hotel for safety reasons.
Getting inside...
I pony-tailed my hair,
Took off my boots,
My makeup...
And retreated for the night under the covers.
This morning I won't get into as nothing was really that important. But finally I got home at 3, watched movies with my Mother and Berry 'till 6:30 P.M. and now at 6:52 P.M., I'm here telling you my story.
