Thank You all

[Janet_Girl]

I may not be here on the morrow.  I can not take the hurt and being this freak.

Good bye, my beloved family.
Janet

[childofwinter]

I don't really know what to say, but I'm going to say something anyway.

You are not a freak, only those who hate you are freaks. You are a wonderful human being who has had to fight hard to right a mistake made before you were even born. Please do not do anything drastic and talk to someone you know and trust, because there is always hope.

[Laura91]

Why do you feel like you are a freak?

[FairyGirl]

Janet honey hang in there. Take a deep breath... let it out slow... do it again... there now. Everything is going to be better, you'll see. That cute guy is out there just waiting for you; don't disappoint him by not being there. You'll get through this- we all will. Lots of happy fairy sunbeams and hugs!! 

[Flan]

why the pain? what's up janet?

I can only offer words of calming at this point, just try to relax, whoever may have said hurtful things was probably just being an ass about a silly argument over trivial things.

If you have to, just go on vacation from the site, 'cause permanent "solutions" don't solve temporary problems.

[Just Kate]

You have many people who look up to you.  Please show them they can continue to do so, that you control your condition and that it doesn't control you.

Your actions will not go unnoticed, you serve as an example to us - don't let that be tainted by a rash decision.

Personally, I want you to be here tomorrow.

[Osiris]

I know when things are down New Years can be really rough, especially if you have the thought that you might not have anything to look forward to. But you are a wonderful woman and do have people who care about you. Try to see past the negative things and hold on to the positives in life. You have a lot of love and understanding coming to ya. Don't lose faith in yourself or others.

If you need someone to talk to come into chat or send me a PM.

[Ms Jessica]

Janet

I know. 

We're all here for you, whether that's just to listen or give you a shoulder to cry on.  You are loved, and I know that doesn't make everything better, but we know you, we love you and we're not running away from your hurt. 

Talk to us, hon.  We're listening. 

[Alyssa M.]

When I go through dark times, they seem darker often because they seem permanent -- but they never are. Things can change so quickly. Think how much has changed for you in just a short time. Maybe it changed for worse; but it can change for the better just as fast. I don't mean to dismiss you pain, but to reassure you that it will end.

Or let me say it this way:

[Inphyy]

Just like how a lot of people ask me this question a lot...I'll answer it the same way. Many people ask, "Have you ever thought about suicide? A lot of trans end up doing it?!"

I answer them like this:

"What is the point in suicide? Really? If I commit suicide, It'll make haters and people who don't understand that much more happier! I think I'd rather stay alive...And give these people a little more hell!  "

(Followed by a short pause)

"Lets say for example, If I did commit suicide and lets say there's a trans child out there who researched up trans suicide rates or end up learning about my story. That'll make them more absorbent to wanting to do the so act themselves! I need to be a role model for other Trans out there...There's hardly any of us as it is, ending my life will just make the government slack back more with LGBTQI rights instead of dealing with whats laid out on the table for them to do."

[memy]

I may not be here on the morrow.  I can not take the hurt and being this freak.

Good bye, my beloved family.
Janet

Why do you think you're a freak? 
The replies I see here do not seem to be about a freak & the sentiment in them speaks of someone who is caring.
You have shared allot on this board judging from your post count & you are trusted otherwise you would not be an admin', your post has me wonder what harsh treatment has been dealt to you to have you forget that you have as much right to be who you are as anyone.

Even more so in that you have endeavoured to be who you are!

It is most unfortunate that I have not privilege enough yet to look upon your profile & view what you have shared (your posts), but I will & I hope you will still be about •ô•

[Janet_Girl]

Thank you Janepf.  I forgot one of my songs.



Bless you, Sister.
Janet
Post Merge: December 21, 2009, 12:18:58 AM
Please don't go where I went, my children.  Always remember to DANCE..



I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

[Chrissty]

Awww Sis...

BIG HUG ! 

Come on...Let's watch the sun come up together.. 



.....I hear today is going to be good one....



Chrissty

[Janet_Girl]

Beautiful, Sis,  Let us dance in the sunrise.

[Chrissty]

Beautiful, Sis,  Let us dance in the sunrise.

Barefoot of course.... I like to feel the grass between my toes!



Chrissty

[jesse]

janet
i hope whatever caused your pain has receaded we love you and want you around i also hope you dance this is one of my favorite songs as well.
hugs
jessica

[memy]

Looks like the sun has shone upon you once more Janet, awesome :-)
That song is beautiful.

[Allamakee]

Janet, I am so glad you have pulled back from that dark place.  Its awful there. I think many of us have visited, and its no place to be.

Although I am not a frequent poster, I have appreciated what you have had to say.  Please believe me that more people than you know would have missed you.

[tekla]

Just like how a lot of people ask me this question a lot...I'll answer it the same way. Many people ask, "Have you ever thought about suicide? A lot of trans end up doing it?!"

My answer has always been: "No, but I do think a lot about homicide.  I mean really, can you imagine the dedication that most serial killers put into their work?"  That pretty much requires an immediate change-O-topic and we're off the issue.

And hey, at the very least, the freaks have much, much better parties.

[NDelible Gurl]

I'm glad someone is feeling better

I am one of the girls who looks up to you here Janet. Keep on spreading that infectious charisma around girl! Happy Holidays, Festivus, or how you celebrate this time of the year

~Mia~