(at the risk of hi jacking the thread)
The psychologist I am seeing now told me she uses this battery of tests to help determine if a person is a candidate for SRS. My dysphoria is strong enough to indicate surgery either way.
My earliest childhood memories are of my female self. But after a very awkward childhood and adolescence, I went into complete denial of this part of who I am. I suppressed my female self to the point of becoming completely unaware of it for the past 35 years. This side of me awoke with a vengeance about two years ago, threatening to take over. But as right as it felt to be a woman, it just did not fit as well as my GT tried to convince me it did. There were too many things I could never give up about being a guy.
I present as solidly male or female. But what is going on in my head is a different story. I feel most feminine when I am expressing myself as a guy and most masculine when I am expressing myself as a girl. There is always an uncomfortableness, something tugging at me to pull the other way. For purposes of my sanity, my best attempt at self identification is that I am a woman who prefers to express herself as a guy and is unwilling to give up her femininity.
