See doing these videos is good for me cause I'm not good at speaking. And I don't mean public speaking, I mean all speaking. I stutter and get stuck. I do this thing where I'll be talking and all of a sudden I just completely forget the next word.
So I look unorganized and unprepared even though I spend an least half an hour if not more planning out each video. I make a basic outline, so I don't read, but also so I don't ramble in my thoughts. I originally had that problem, but I'm trying to keep my videos shorter and to the point now. It is still hard not to ramble, because my speech problem makes me nervous.
But I feel like my videos are bad. Not the content, but like my recording of the information is bad. Bahhhh I don't know. This is a difficult area for me, and I don't know why I can't just relax. I'm charismatic in person, and my co-workers looooooove me. I'm the funny guy who always has the witty remark to add that makes everyone laugh. But for some reason it isn't transferring to video the way I had hoped.
I just looked and have only been doing videos for 4 months total. Out of the 9 uploads I have, I think 6 have been in the last 2 weeks. So I guess it hasn't been that long. It felt like longer...\
Maybe I'm just self conscious and there isn't anything wrong. Idk
Nick