I feel like my life is over

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Before I told my mum how I felt, I was pretty certain I was transgenderd. Now after giving her my letter, I feel like a worthless failure, I feel horrible, sick in the stomach, and in a way regret it. Shes cool with it tho, didnt mind at all, told me she would accept me in any way I came. But I cant help feeling stupid with myself!

She said I should wait but I dunno. Before her finding out, everything was so simple and worked out in my head, now its just wow, my entire life is over! My dad finds out later tonight, I dont even think I wanna wake up tomorrow! Im even more confused than I ever was before, she also suggested counselling soon.

After telling her tho, everythings suddenly sunk down and I feel as if I really dont want to be a boy anymore. Aaaaahh I need to cry so badly!

[Dana Lane]

Before I told my mum how I felt, I was pretty certain I was transgenderd. Now after giving her my letter, I feel like a worthless failure, I feel horrible, sick in the stomach, and in a way regret it. Shes cool with it tho, didnt mind at all, told me she would accept me in any way I came. But I cant help feeling stupid with myself!

She said I should wait up but I dunno. Before her finding out, everything was so simple and worked out in my head, now its just wow, my entire life is over! My dad finds out later tonight, I dont even think I wanna wake up tomorrow! Im even more confused than I ever was before, she also suggested counselling soon.

After telling her tho, everythings suddenly sunk down and I feel as if I really dont want to be a boy anymore. Aaaaahh I need to cry so badly!

Take your mother's advice and see a therapist. One that deals with gender identity issues. You seem to be having some kind of Gender Dysphoria and a therapist can help you.

[spacial]

It really hard to have to tell our parents that we're grown up now.

One minute we know inside but are still the kid, making a mess, having someone watch out for us and so on.

Then we confess, 'Mom, I'm adult'.

Bang. Mom stops dead in her tracks as she realises that she kinda missed that one.

And another of life's milestones passes by, never to be seen again.

You did the right thing.

[Jamie-o]

Take a breath.  Drink a glass of water, or better yet, warm milk.  Feeling a bit better?  Now get a good night's sleep and see how you feel in the morning.  You're probably suffering the equivalent of buyer's remorse.  That "WtF did I just do?" moment that most of us have after doing something big that we can't take back. (I felt the same way after I told my mom, and I waited until I was 34 years old, so don't feel bad.)  The good news is, you don't have to make any more irreversible decisions for a while.  You have plenty of time to decide if this is really something you want to do or not.  Talking to a therapist who is versed in gender issues can help you work out how you really feel, and where you want to go from here.  And if you decide to go through with transition at some point you'll probably have to spend some time with one anyway, so it's not a bad idea to go ahead and do it.  It's nice that your mom seems to be understanding.  Good luck going forward.

[gennee]

Your life's just beginning.

Gennee

[tiger]

It kinda sucks to come out at first. It does turn you life upside down and makes some things more complicated. Things WILL get better.

Hugs, Jenny

[Silver]

Take your mother's advice and see a therapist. One that deals with gender identity issues. You seem to be having some kind of Gender Dysphoria and a therapist can help you.

Seconded, that's what gender therapists are for, really. You're lucky that you're mom's cool with it so far.

[Brittani A.]

My therapist is so helpful that he insists that he call me twice a month. I take hormones and I talk for 50 minutes a session. He and my friend who is post-op are the only ones that know that I am transgendered that I have told. Probably more know since I have been on hormones for a year and my body has changed so much since I began and I have my facial hair removal in progress. But the point is a therapist can tell if I am headed for trouble and if I am goin in the way that benifits me the best. He is on Transgendercare.com. And I get information here on this site as well even if it is not what I want to hear I listen to what other's say. I have been female all my life so it doesn't matter how long I am in "transition" I have been trying to find out who I am for 55 years. Sometimes I feel like my life is over too with good reason. My age and health, however I would rather be a whole person content with who and what I am rather than hide all the time for my remaining years being someone I am not. Be U!!