I was invited to go to Mardi Gras in Louisiana with a friend. It's about a full days drive from Orlando, and I have no reason not to go.
I have come out to virtually everyone that I know. So she is inviting me along to try to let me go out some (at least that's just a hunch of mine, she hasn't told me that directly.), but it's scary! I'm not quite sure what to do. Huge celebrations aren't usually my thing. Though I enjoy a party with friends, and friends of friends, and I'm quite sociable; it's just that larger events tend to make me uncomfortable.
I already go out in girl clothes, just nothing really feminine. I wear pants (jeans mostly), socks, shoes, sometimes (although rarely) tops and padded bra's to give me more of the figure. I have peirced ears with studs in them, longer highlighed hair, and it's impossible to hide my personality.
"Going out" on such an event (or under any circumstance) seems stressful, but very enticing. I am so tired of feeling restricted, but at the same time I don't know if I feel quite ready for it.
Anyone have any thoughts regarding this?
(After typing and proof reading this message, I have come to realize that I am already about 80% feminine appearance, so I don't know why I'm stressing about finishing it off instead of trying to stay in limbo.)