How do I read to you?

[Pica Pica]

you do look happier in the new picture, i like that

[Sevan]

In all my old pictures it was very...posed. Shoulders back, smile just this much, open eyes this much, tilt head this way...nothing was EVER a simple candid. Ever. Often times I'd take 4-5 pictures before I was satified.

Recently...pictures just...are. I don't worry. I smile, I squint if that's what's gonna happen...it just...IS.

As to the rosy cheeks...well without make up there seems to be nothing much I can do about that. That's just how my face is. And adding make up...just seems...counter intuitive. If a natal male has a ruddy complexion then...he's got a ruddy complexion! He'd never wear cover up just to hide his cheeks. I understand that I'm NOT a natal male but...I don't know..just thoughts I'm kicking around that clearly aren't fully formed yet! lmao.

[Nero]

Here's one:

I was working on a collage of old pictures last night and ended up grieving. Oops. Didn't mean to upset myself so. Ah well...such is life. This was...2006 I think? Probably.

Damn! 

[Sevan]

*blushes* thanks Nero, thanks Ativan.

In my very early adult life I dressed male, had male hair cut, was in a committed lesbian relationship...I was treated very male. I was super skinny little rail of a thing and my chest wasn't near as big as it is now. Pretty easy to hide. People treated me...pretty much like a guy. I didn't know any different as I was new to the adult world.

I broke up with my partner, started dating my current mate and we appeared to be a straight couple so I thought I'd play that role out and see what long hair "girlyiness" was all about! People started opening doors for me, men whistled at me as I walked down the street...by no means did I think myself some hot buiscuit but it was definitly different!! I was actually being affirmed in my appearence where as before...no one cared, or would give me negative looks at best.

Going from all the compliments, family support (they REALLY liked my fem look...didn't hide that at all) My mate's expressed that's what she likes...and while I know she doesn't love me less, it's actually really stinkin hard to stand up for me and what *I* want to look like...when I got so much more from being girly! Gotta be me...

hehe. But thank youf or the comments.

[no_id]

Definitely quite the change.
I can figure it can be quite hard to get to 'your look' if you've gone from one extreme to the other (so to say).
Either way, as long as you're on your way gettin' happy in your skin then it doesn't matter where the road goes.

Thanks for sharing the pics.