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What makes it Tic?

Started by no_id, March 29, 2010, 12:57:07 PM

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confused

well , i always knew i was more like a tomboy girl , before i find susans , i had no idea whatsoever about names and classification , it might be hard to o believe but (given where i live) i never even knew that there where others feeling the same as me with dysphoria and all and i didn't even know the term (GID), when i started to do research and search for solutions to what i feel , i stubled into an article talking about something they called 'lesbian male' . so i read it and found a lot of things that's similar to how i feel ,i was glade then an online friend told me about susans so i came here


now all my life i knew i was supposed to be born female , but i always saw myself as tomboy , i didn't even know that there's something called androgyne
and when i was telling my psychiatrist she made me notice that i really don't wanna have neither a penis or a vag. , but if i had too i'd definitly choose vag. , i was just about to post here asking (ok seriously how do you know if your andro?) and then i saw your post , still figuring it out
but untill now , a lot of what was said here i can totally relate to , i mean it is a full spectrum that's what i believe . my user name here is 'confused' and i still am

what annoys me about it is that i still don't have a total definition of myself , and that i feel that i have to choose one side , i've always been a girl but i like some guy aspects , it's like i wanna be 70% girl and 30 guy
it's like i like looking pretty but i like my hair relatively short , i don't like /leave hair on my body ,idk still confused , but thanks for that post , i'll keep reading
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brainiac

Quote from: Lia on April 16, 2010, 10:33:07 PMi've always been a girl but i like some guy aspects , it's like i wanna be 70% girl and 30 guy
Heh, I'm exactly the opposite. I've always felt like I'm a feminine guy.

And I too am trying to figure out a good way to define myself, or more specifically, explain myself.
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Pica Pica

What makes it tic for all the people that never got to say?
'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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ZaidaZadkiel

I have no experience of living as a man, or as a woman, and will never be able to understand truly what they're about.
I'd like to have both sex organs, but I'm stuck with one.

The thing which makes me say "I'm an androgyne" 100% sure, is that one day I might be prancing around in a dress and being such a girl to a level which annoys other girls, and the next day I'll be elbow deep in a motorcycle engine, all dirty and with oil in my nose etc.

Likewise, I am the one who brings in the food, the one who can do and undo the world for my loved ones, but I can't cook anything above instant ramen soup with eggs.

There are so many things which make me an happy Zaddy but which are typical masculine or femenine things to do, and I won't stop doing them as far as I can.

...This reminds me that I need a new dress. I left all my dresses and skirts in the other city, and mother will have to get accustomed to it.
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Pica Pica

Quote from: ZaidaZadkiel on July 29, 2011, 10:17:25 AM
I have no experience of living as a man, or as a woman, and will never be able to understand truly what they're about.
I'd like to have both sex organs, but I'm stuck with one.

I'd agree with that. I guess I have always lived as an androgyne, but only recent-ish have had the information to understand what I've been doing.
'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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ativan

That space between tocks

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Julian

In my case, I know I'm androgynous/genderless because I simply don't know how to live as a gendered person. I have occasional bouts of anxiety where I feel the need to act more like my assigned gender, and it gets worse when I realize I have no idea how to do that. I don't know what being the "opposite" gender is like either. And in no way could I fathom being both at once or in turn. I've always just kind of floated around in my own little space outside the shiny colorful gender spectrum.
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RebeccaFog


I think I actually have no ID. I'm not making a play on no_id's name. I may have little to no ego. I am ether. Not enough nothing to fill a vacuum.

I don't even think about gender anymore. Other peoples' gender expression is nothing more than eye color to me.

I haven't the faintest idea of what I just wrote but I'm standing by it until someone convinces me otherwise. Or beats a retraction from me.
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ativan

Dissipation into the ambiance.......
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Maga Girl

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder

You have to be a woman or man (or both¿?) you can't be an alien (or maybe?) ¬_¬
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I'm a femenine guy, but i don't feel im a boy  ???

- Clothes no make the genre or how you act in society ...
- Femininity and masculinity are stupid ''social and cultural constructions''

(sorry for my bad english) 



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Julian

Quote from: Narela on August 01, 2011, 09:13:14 AM
You have to be a woman or man (or both¿?) you can't be an alien

I identify as nothing having to do with man or woman, and sometimes I identify as an alien.
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Pica Pica

Quote from: Narela on August 01, 2011, 09:13:14 AM
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder

You have to be a woman or man (or both¿?) you can't be an alien (or maybe?) ¬_¬
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I think the androgyne thing may be about how to be the alien and use that to increase association, not disassociation.
'For the circle may be squared with rising and swelling.' Kit Smart
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Sage

Quote from: Sevan on March 29, 2010, 03:43:58 PM
For me I think...it was a process of elimination. I determined that there was wrongness with my gender identity because I ruled out basically all other "crazy" that it could be. (did therapy, got diagnosed with a number of things that never fit me quite right and took pills which never helped my issues)

So then I started looking at the gender spectrum. A quick glance and you find FtM or MtF. Since I'm not starting male..I went with FtM. "tried it on for size" and found that it really didn't fit. Some of this, and some of that perhaps...a few things in common...maybe. A bit more digging and I come across androgyny and "Eurkea!" it fits!!

Every now and again I do have doubt because I rarely like to "dress andrgoynous" I know the rules of how to behave in a way that would make people question...but that's not what I'm here for. So I just have a simlpe conversation with myself that goes a little like this,

"Ok then. Tired of being androgyn eh? Well...let's stop it then. Let's just be *female*. No? Don't want to be female? Feels it doesn't fit..eh? Hmmm...well let's be *male* then. Same problem? Huh. Guess we're stuck being androgyn then. Onward and upward."
*sniffle*  It's like you've known me all my life!   :D  How did you read my mind like that?   ::)  lol.  Never have I heard such a similar story, or point of view on this matter.   ;D
"Be whoever you are, but be loud. Be completely fearless when you do it. That's the big thing. Just be a fearless person. A fearless artist, a fearless accountant. Whatever you want to be." - Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance

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