Megan ... have you considered what it actually feels like to be an extraordinarily beautiful woman ... or how men react to seeing a woman who looks like that? I write books that are published around the world and readers often contact me, just to talk about the books and (hopefully!) why they like them. Last year I was contacted online by a young woman who'd read a couple of my books and had questions about the characters and stories. We exchanged a couple of messages and the she told me she was a model. Specifically, she'd been a Playboy centrefold, and was now into more conventional fashion and advertising work.
This girl was unbelievably beautiful. Off-the-chart. And the effect of her looks was incredible. Her life consisted of being hit on, all the time, wherever she went ... by women as well as men. One of the reasons we got on very well was that I didn't hit on her, but actually took her seriously (I never explained exactly WHY I didn't hit on her ... we never got THAT close!!). It turned out she was incredibly smart, very original thinking, very funny, but 99.99% of people never found out about that - or even gave a ->-bleeped-<- - because all they ever wanted to do was shag her. She knew this and was very cynical about it and very disillusioned.
She could also, just like those wives of Roger Vadim that Cindy J was talking about, be surprisingly insecure about her appearance. She had very, very conflicted feelings about the enormous gap between how she was perceived and how she actually felt about herself. In some respects she was incredibly confident, because she knew exactly the effect her beauty had on everyone around her. In other respects, she was crippled inside.
My point is, sure, it's great to be good-looking. But there is a price to be paid for being really beautiful. From everything you've read, I get the feeling that this obsession with being beautiful is almost a way of covering up much deeper uncertainties about how you really feel, or even what you really are. Trust me, beauty won't help you figure any of that out.
So get your head straight. Then worry about your pretty face!