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Started by JessieMH, April 13, 2010, 11:19:35 PM

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JessieMH

So, I plan on coming out to my dad on Friday (same day I tell my GP) and I was wondering what to expect from other peoples experience.

I'm kind of worried what he will say, on one hand, he was born and raised Catholic, went to a school where the teachers were all nuns, and I have heard him utter very anti-gay (but not trans) things when drunk.

On the other hand, he is the most intelligent (Masters in History), open minded, liberal, hard working person I know.

So really I'm worried that maybe he isn't the man I think he is, that maybe somewhere in him is a person that can't handle this sort of thing.  I'm not sure :-\


Now for something else, I'm only 18 and well to be honest, my body has never really grown "male" I have very (like, almost andro) soft features, my hands are the same size as my mothers, my hair is naturally "wavy" and longish like a girls (or most that I know anyways) and I'm worried that if I wait too long before starting hormones that I might lose these things that might end up making passing much easier for me.

But I really don't feel ready to start...  I'm badly overweight (5'11" 284 or something), have horrible skin problems, other health concerns that may or may not effect this (I don't think so but we'll see) almost to the point of failing school, that last one is almost inevitable actually, I'll likely end up taking the GED instead.  I've never really been the type to tackle a lot of problems at once and these are all life altering, world shattering, massive problems... to deal with everything at once just feels over whelming.

If anyone has anything to say, please do so, life sucks right now :(
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Katelyn-W

Well exercising will obvious help with losing weight, it will also make your skin healthier, and help your overall health in general, three birds one stone ;). Hormones (female ones) will also make your skin healthier, not saying you should do that, just throwing it out there :P. I know it's sorta an obvious thing to exercise, even if you are at a good weight. The main thing is trying to find ways to keep yourself motivated, finding someone else to exercise with is probably the best way. One important thing to remember is that your diet is what will make you lose weight, the exercise just keeps your body working/keep metabolism high. Even just 10-15mins a day of exercise will help a lot, but again diet is the main thing.

All parents are different, but my dad was also born and raised Catholic. He was in the Navy, and I've heard him say anti-gay AND anti-trans stuff, wasn't terrible stuff, but it still worried me. When I told him (well my mom actually did, even though I said not to >:(), it did take him a bit to get use to the idea, but he eventually told me he "wants me to be happy" and "I love you no matter what". I know he would prefer if this all went away, but he told me that I'm an adult and it's up to me what I want to do, and he'll support those decisions. Again all parents are different, but they do love you (or I should hope :laugh:), so you might be surprised.

After you graduate (I'm sure you will ;)) do you plan on going to college right away? I took time off, felt sorta pathetic seeing everyone else go on, it helped me in the long run though.
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JessieMH

I already do exercise a good amount... walking 45-1hr every day, eat fairly well, not too many carbs, plenty of salads and fruit... just large by whatever flawed design I was based on I guess, nobody else in my family is overweight so its odd :'(

I heard that HRT usually makes skin worse not better... anyone else know for sure on that?  Would like to know!

And I'm planning on going to university at some point in my life, no time soon, maybe mid 20s if everything gets sorted out in my life...

Hope it goes well with my dad, my mom will be there with me when I tell him (and my GP) but I am very scared of how he will react x.x
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Katelyn-W

Have you ever talked to your doctor about your weight? It could be a thyroid problem, or something like that.

As for skin, testosterone can cause a FtM to get acne. For a MtF I heard female hormones will make your skin dry, but it will also help with acne (because your T levels will be down), and makes skin softer, etc.
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JessieMH

Already been tested for thyroid, diabetes etc  All negative.

Good to know about the skin tho! Thanks!
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shanetastic

I was worried about my dad too

My mom told him for me sometime and he was totally fine with it

I'm going to mirror what Katelyn said here about dad just wanting the best for me and doesn't care how I achieve that.  I had a lot of issues when younger and they didn't know what to do with me so eventually when I did tell them I opened avenues for help so they were happy to see a change in my attitude.

Hopefully he won't give you a bad reaction :/  A lot of people can say anti gay trans etc things but eventually when it effects them in a personal way things may change in their acceptance.  Just make sure to reiterate the fact that he is not a failed father.  Mine went into that denial for a little bit and that's not really conductive to your situation and helping their acceptance.
trying to live life one day at a time
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Starscrash

If it's not to personal, are your testicles undersized?  You don't need to share, but the average male's are about 5 cm measuring at the longest.  Volume is the actual concern here, but if you have serious non inherited "pear shaped" weight problems, lack of body hair, etc...it might be worth bringing up Klinefelter Syndrome with your GP.
You alluded to some other problems; if a serious lack of energy is one of them, I'd definitely bring it up. 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Klinefelter%27s_syndrome
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JessieMH

Good to be home...

First no Starscrash, not Klinefelter, already been tested as well.  Thanks though.

I totally chickened out of telling my dad, it sucks but maybe its for the best if I'm not ready for it :embarrassed:

Good news!  My doctor apparently has a couple of other trans patients already so knows plenty and got me a referral to a psychiatrist and an endo, all covered under the Canadian health system so completely free of charge! /cheer
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JessieMH

Well, update, told him today and he took it very well, didn't actually said much of anything since he already knows a lot of the issues from back in the 70s... alls well that that ends well I guess.

Still, feels a little... odd, with him knowing and being so detached about it =\  Almost would have preferred it if he had gotten angry and thrown me out or something, right now its like one of those silences where nobody says anything when someone really should :icon_ashamed:
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LordKAT

He is probably just taking some time to let it sink in and decide how he is going to deal with it from his side.
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pebbles

Quote from: JessieMH on April 26, 2010, 10:59:28 PM
Well, update, told him today and he took it very well, didn't actually said much of anything since he already knows a lot of the issues from back in the 70s... alls well that that ends well I guess.

Still, feels a little... odd, with him knowing and being so detached about it =\  Almost would have preferred it if he had gotten angry and thrown me out or something, right now its like one of those silences where nobody says anything when someone really should :icon_ashamed:
Be wary of this... My mother did a similar thing, It's the stages of grief!

First comes denial where you don't get a reaction.
Then comes Anger
Then comes Depression
and so on.
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inoutallabout

So he drinks, and when drinking, he's prone to abusive statements towards gays?  You may find it wise to become scarce when he's drunk, as most people who drink display their honest, unchecked opinions.  This is particularly true about people they're close to, that's when any grievances are expounded in the most vulgar, obnoxious ways possible, especially to those who would be hurt the most.

Best of wishes that the situation doesn't escalate to that, and good luck with him!

A few things to look into regarding diet may be acid-alkaline balances and strategies for healthy digestion, and looking to reduce the artificial and chemically altered products, and most importantly: CONSISTENCY.  As far as working out, walking won't just do, perhaps cycling as well.  And, simply because you're, "walking," on a daily basis, doesn't mean you're actually challenging yourself.  Only you can be the judge of that, but you should not be doing the same routine every day without a definite, traceable gradual progression.  For example, if it's a treadmill, you can slowly increase the distance you walk in an hour, same for cycling on an exercise bike.  That forces the change on you.  Alternatively, there's walking the same distance but making attempts to shave off the time it takes you, say, to the park and back in an hour this week, then to the park and back in 55 minutes the next week, and so on.

I highly suggest cycling because not only does it develop muscles in the leg, it's joint healthy(yes, you may want those knees to work come 10 years from now), and one can cycle at different paces, such as fast for cardiovascular intensive training, and a higher setting to allow for some muscle development, both of which are crucial to not only losing weight effectively, but keeping it off permanently.

Good luck!
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