I never even saw it coming...

[scarboroughfair]

Well, first off. Let be apologize if I ever came off too assertive here or anti-transgender. I'm definitely not anti-transgender.

I just chose to share my findings in hopes it would help others.

Anyways, something happened today that I never saw coming.

I was called "MAM" by two different guys today!

I'm not even trying anymore but still keep clean shaven and my eyebrows groomed! Just when I gave up and was ready to close the case on this and walk away from my feelings a simple three letter word crashed everything! It's like they took a match and threw it in a field of gasoline igniting a fire I worked hard to put out!

I had this whole article I was preparing about being successful at over coming being a transgender.

You know what? From now on maybe I should keep my mouth or "keyboard" shut about it.

I still love myself and will just have to accept myself the way I am, female. I've been doing a lot of work with God and trying to better myself, but today I was humbled. If it was a test for me God prepared for me to be called "MAM" I failed miserably

I just hope yall understand why I was trying to get away from all of this, I just made it public to help others. I'll just carry on and find a happy balance.

Thank you folks so much for putting up with me.

The perfect song below for the occasion???

[spacial]

Hey, if Susan's can put up with me, they can put up with you.

[jesse]

whose to say thats gods test for you isnt being transgender their is a certain amount of growth that comes with our condition and a whole lot of humbling that goes with it to. one has to experience pain in order to have sympathy with those in pain. find peace were you can find it
jessica

[Kendall]

I cannot believe that God wants you or anyone else to feel guilty for WHO you are or for being yourself openly.

People should feel guilty for doing things that INJURE others.

That does not include inviting someone to be uncomfortable because your being yourself does not fit their idea of you. No one has the right to tell you who to be, so if they do not like it, that is their problem.

I also believe that God (or Goddess or sacred principle or essence - whatever you make of it) broadly understood God would want you to honor your essence, your being, by being the best you you can be and not deny yourself, not pretend to be something you think you should be by an external standard.

I believe it is no sin to be yourself. It may be one not to be.

(Now I have to figure out how to live up to my own challenge - it may not be a sin to be myself, but it is confusing and scary).

Kendall

[RebeccaFog]

whose to say thats gods test for you isnt being transgender their is a certain amount of growth that comes with our condition and a whole lot of humbling that goes with it to. one has to experience pain in order to have sympathy with those in pain. find peace were you can find it
jessica

Yep. A lifetime of growth.

[Janet_Girl]

During many of the arguments my ex and I had about my being Trans, she would say God doesn't make mistakes.  She was trying to tell me that God made me Male and I should live with it.

But what I have come to understand is that "Yes. God doesn't make mistakes.  But He made me Transsexual for a reason.".  What His reason was I am not going to question, I have accepted that I am Trans for His greater glory.  He will set before me the things I need to complete this journey.  I just have to learn patience.  But I want it NOW. 

[rejennyrated]

The problem with many religious people is that they create a God in their own image.
Thus zhe ends up far too small, far too conventional and far too ridded with all their own guilts and prejudices.

A God who is worthy of belief is more than capable of calling people to the vocation of being transgender.

This is no accident. It is a calling. I would not wish my life any other way.

If I had not been blessed enough to have been trans I would have missed some of the best experiences of my life and I would be the poorer for it.

I am not ashamed of having been Trans. I am proud, and I genuinely thank God every day for having thus blessed me.

[FairyGirl]

It's actually spelled ma'am, short for madam, so technically it's at least a 4 letter word with an apostrophe, not to split hairs or anything

What's with people always talking about God's "tests" anyway? As though God was some sort of experimental research creator going around making imperfect beta version creations that need constant debugging in order to function properly. God always knows exactly what God is doing, and the challenges we are given in life are never about "testing" us, but are for helping us grow and learn to become the best at being our true selves that we can, exactly the way God made us, with the cards we were dealt. If that means that God thought to the best way to do that for me was by making me transsexual, then I'm going to run with it, and see what good, positive things there are for me to learn from the experience. So far it's been pretty wonderful, even considering the bad parts that inevitably come with it.

If I'm incessantly being put to some sort of vague, blind "test" by some imperfect deity, then I'll never have time for the real business of just becoming who I'm meant to be. There's more than enough work to do there without the added stress of constantly living in fear that I may be failing some cosmic "test". If I keep the attitude that some god is always testing me for some unfathomable reason which I am also left to figure out for myself, then it prevents me from growing as a person, spiritually or mentally, because I'm still trying to live up to someone elses incomprehensible standards and I'm not using my God-given abilities to deal with my real-life challenges and find my own path through. I feel we just go with what we've got, and don't try to second guess God's motives because that's way too complicated for my little brain.

Assuming God exists and possesses the powers attributed to God, then Yes ma'am, this is who I am, just exactly the way God made me. If anyone has a problem with that, they can take it up with Her.

[JessieMH]

Bah, if there is a god it is a sadistic, cruel and likely insane being who plays with us like a child would ants.

Besides, simple logic alone destroys the view of an all powerful being, "Can God create a rock so large and heavy he himself can not move it?"  Either way, it proves a God is not all powerful.  Not bashing on anyone who does have faith, just voicing my opinion.

[Laura Emily]

But what I have come to understand is that "Yes. God doesn't make mistakes.  But He made me Transsexual for a reason.".  What His reason was I am not going to question, I have accepted that I am Trans for His greater glory.  He will set before me the things I need to complete this journey.  I just have to learn patience.  But I want it NOW. 

I could not have said that any better myself. I know the feeling. I'm on HRT atm. I started in January. I really can't wait to get my surgery done, though. hehehe

[Doveglion]

First I have to ask because as soon as I saw your user name it popped into my head. Does your username refer to a fair in Texas particularly near a place I like to fondly refer to as middle of nowhere land? o.o Because that would mean that someone on this board actually lives sort of near me.

But anyway onwards to your actual post. It's awesome to see another person here finally just being themselves it takes bravery. It takes even more to believe in something greater then yourself. I know I don't have that, but I do have people like yourself and everyone else here to inspire me. =]  I know in today's world most people are out to disprove everyone's beliefs, but that's what makes having them even more important. I'm of no particular religion, but I find those who are to be some of the most peaceful pleasant people I've ever met. Keep doing what you're doing miss it's clearly working out for you and that's all that matters in the end. What makes you happy. 

[FairyGirl]

see also Scarborough Fair...

[Just Kate]

First I have to ask because as soon as I saw your user name it popped into my head. Does your username refer to a fair in Texas particularly near a place I like to fondly refer to as middle of nowhere land? o.o Because that would mean that someone on this board actually lives sort of near me.

But anyway onwards to your actual post. It's awesome to see another person here finally just being themselves it takes bravery. It takes even more to believe in something greater then yourself. I know I don't have that, but I do have people like yourself and everyone else here to inspire me. =]  I know in today's world most people are out to disprove everyone's beliefs, but that's what makes having them even more important. I'm of no particular religion, but I find those who are to be some of the most peaceful pleasant people I've ever met. Keep doing what you're doing miss it's clearly working out for you and that's all that matters in the end. What makes you happy. 

I go to Scarborough Faire in Texas almost every year.  We must be close to one another then.

[BunnyBee]

If somebody feels this transsexual existence is supposed to be some kind of test from God that we are expected to overcome, I think their God is a complete sadist.  Maybe they have been worshiping the wrong one by accident...

[Nicky]

SBF seems a fascinating person. They fight their dysphoria, yet at the same time list themselves as female gendered. It sounds like "I accept myself but am not going to allow myself to be myself". Overcoming being transgendered from my perspective sounds like successfully denying yourself. I guess if it makes you happy.

What is success for you though?

Half of what you say just does not compute to me. I guess I think in very different ways. I don't think I have the same 'in' knowledge, or cultural knowledge, that you have to help interpret your words. So to me it appears that you talk a lot, but don't say much. I mean what gets born if you lose your mind? Sounds like all you get is madness, or catatonia.

But perhaps the biggest gulf between us is I see me being myself as part of bettering myself where you see giving in to the dysphoria as a personal decline (unless I have misunderstood everything you said). I being myself fully I am free to be more compassionate to others.

You feel you would fall where I fly. Maybe our heaven and hells are reversed?

[gennee]

Once you accept yourself, the first hurdle will be cleared. It's a journey to say the least. I've been on it for five years. I'm much more content and happy. It's doesn't matter what others think or say.

Gennee

[deviousxen]

During many of the arguments my ex and I had about my being Trans, she would say God doesn't make mistakes.  She was trying to tell me that God made me Male and I should live with it.

But what I have come to understand is that "Yes. God doesn't make mistakes.  But He made me Transsexual for a reason.".  What His reason was I am not going to question, I have accepted that I am Trans for His greater glory.  He will set before me the things I need to complete this journey.  I just have to learn patience.  But I want it NOW. 

Parents make mistakes all the time, though.

[cynthialee]

I do believe in the Gods. (notice the plural)
I am a pagan.
I also bellieve in the reincarnation model of existance.
now for the unpopular part....
I believe that Earth is a school for attaining higher state of being (godhood). We must live a life of every diferant type before we move on. We must be a siner and saint and a myriad of diferant types of person. Our souls are wiser than our physical being. I believe that in soulform before we chose our birth, we chose to be trans. The shear amount of insight that being trans affords a person is very much a nice pay off for physical hell. So if you are mad at god for this you are mad at the inner godling that is your soul, therefore you are mad at yourself.
Now I know that on a conscious level that is ->-bleeped-<-y to say but I believe it to be true.

[Jasmine.m]

The shear amount of insight that being trans affords a person is very much a nice pay off for physical hell.

Interesting thought... I've also had similar ideas. We see the gender spectrum with far more clarity then those who are not trans. Is that clarity itself worth the pain and suffering we go through?

[Kaelin]

Janet Lynn: I don't suppose said ex- has ever gone to a dentist to have her wisdom teeth (or any other teeth) removed.